Thursday, July 17, 2014

Taking it one meal at a time


I have a confession.
 I am not doing well. I have been in denial. I have noticed my clothes are not fitting like they should and I am using a belt more. But I ignored it.
I have skip some meals. A little more than here or there. But I pretended everything was okay. I blamed it on a bad case of food poisoning.
Last week,  I visited my best friend. Nothing slips past her. She was polite but firm in her assessment. She looked me up and down and said I had lost 20 pounds and it was noticeable. And she was very worried.
Between the stress of the job, missing my friends, worrying about money and other things, eating has not been a priority. I am really not sure what to do.
I don’t want to go back on remeron. While I gained weight, it made me so anxious that I had to take anxiety medicine.
Currently, I am not taking any meds. I really wanted to handle life without medication. But I need to be honest with myself. I am one of those people who need medication.
I have found a new doctor and I made an appointment for Aug. 13. I have worked hard to get where I am physically, mentally and in my career.
I have prayed and asked God for some help. And it arrived in the form of Ms. L yestersay. She is the moderator of a new Overeaters Anonymous group here in the county.
She had sent me an email wanting to know if I could do a story. I am not familiar with OA. I thought it was for people who binge eat. Instead, it is for anyone with an eating disorder. Their meeting are once week after deadline for the newspaper.
The first step in having a problem is admitting you have one. The next step is finding help. So I will attend my first meeting next week.
I need to remain healthy so I can be the best possibly person, friend and mom that I can be.
My vacation is next week and my son will be joining me. I am looking forward to spending some quality time with him. My biggest fear is not having him able to visit me and I don't want him visiting me in a hospital.
My son knows I have issues and I am not perfect. So I need to do whatever is needed to get back on the path of recovery and health.
It starts one meal at a time.

DAILY DOSE
1. Having a really good friend!
2. Finding help!
3. My vacation starts in five days!

1 comment:

  1. I'm so sorry that you have had a slip in your recovery. It's so easy to just skip a meal or two until you are out of control. I hope you can get to feeling better soon.
    Sarah

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