Still hanging in there

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I still have the car situation. I was ready to give up and go back home. But my managing editor and news editor refuses to give up. They love my writing and said they will do everything in their power to help me figure out the car situation. This gives me hope that all is still good in the world. I have had some down moments where I felt like restricting. Wednesday was not a good day because I skipped lunch because I had no appetite.

I am starting to feel better and reread some journal entries to motivate myself. Since I am up here this weekend, I decided to have some food. After work, I walked to Little Caesars an ordered the $5 large sausage pizza. I have already eaten three slices. This is something I wouldn't have done a few months ago. Plus tonight is the broadcast premiere of 300. I love that movie and all the handsome men. I'm feeling a lot better all of a sudden.

Today is September 11. In 2001, I was in Pickle Land. I had just started the job the month before. That morning, I had overslept so I got to work and found the building empty. Everyone was in the breakroom watching tv. I walked in as the second plane hit the building. I remember thinking that things will never be the same again for this country. My heart and prayers have always went out to the family and friends of people who died that day.

Daily Dose

1. To remember to live life to its fullest.

2. A large sausage pizza washed down with orange soda. And butterfinger ice cream for dessert while watching Gerald Butler and the other men of 300.

Comments

  1. xxxSeptember 11, 2009 at 9:38 PM

    Big love to you :)
    You have every reason to be very proud of yourself and all that you are achieving.

    You are always a welcome visitor to my blog.

    xx Ribbon

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  2. xxxSeptember 11, 2009 at 9:39 PM

    ps... I just bought a raffle ticket to win a car.
    Maybe if I win I could post it to you :) xx

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  3. Barbara SwaffordSeptember 12, 2009 at 2:51 AM

    Hi Silly Girl,

    Hang in there. It sounds like everyone is cheering for you. Things WILL work out.

    I agree, with today being September 11th, is does bring back memories of that day. My heart remains with those families who lost loved ones.

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