Saturday, November 27, 2010

Being thankful for future evil scientist

For the last few days, I have been vegging. I started some new meds and am adjusting well to them. I am just in a mood to be lazy. I have posted some pictures from my early birthday celebration with JJ. My favorite is the duck. I don't have many photos of me as a child. JJ can never say this.
JJ and the giant duck


I had at great Thanksgiving. I did absolutely nothing. The most work I did was heating up the turkey, the dressing and green bean casserole that I got from the grocery.

I watch a 10 hour Law and Order marathon. Thanksgiving has always been my mother and I holiday. This year, I just needed to be alone and reflect. I did this in my pajamas with plenty of Law and Order and tons of magazine.

I am thankful that I am doing okay mentally and physically. I  am thankful that I have son who is healthy and sweet. Of course, he has decided he wants to be an evil scientist and take over the world. Mommy will be allowed to keep control of all bookstores. He has created a laugh for himself.

Hanging with Thomas the Train in Barnes and Noble

I had appointments Wednesday with my new doctor, who got me an appointment with a therapist. I am also back on medication. I think it is for the best.

The visit to see JJ went very well. His father and I are pretty nice to each other. He told me he was worried about my ED and if I looked healthy. This has not been a good year for me. When I got sick in June I weighed 115 pounds.  I now weight 106. With everything I have went through, I still managed to do okay without constant meds and therapy. But I need help because I feel myself slipping.

Daily Dose

1. Watching the Sci Fi channel.
2. Found the best chicken salad in the world at the local butcher shop. It is good and worth the money.
3. I am thankful to have such a wonderful little boy. He doesn't know how much of a motivation he is for me.
Super JJ

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Celebrating the big 5 early

On Tuesday, my baby turns five. We celebrated early since I will be in RR. We went to the mall and he played with other kids in the chaotic play area. For JJ, the highlight was walking around in Wal-Mart in the toy aisle and the movie section. Or as he put it best. day. ever. For his birthday, I got him a train with the alphabet and clock to teach him how to spell and tell time, a GI Joe cartoon and kite. He was very happy. Even though, it has been a long week and took 4.5 hours to get to him--it was so worth it to get the hugs, kisses and the love.

We are camped out in hotel room watching cartoons and eating junk food. It's great to almost be five.

This week was a reporter's dream. The worst thing that could happen to a person happened on my paper's watch--an officer was shot in the line of duty on I-95. It was 24 hours filled with a manhunt, a school on lockdown, a suicide and several press conferences. I'm not the crime reporter but I played a crucial role--I got the photo of the remaining suspect being brought into jail. It was interesting but it felt weird. The officer is critical condition and is going to pull through. I admire police officers because it is a job I couldn't do.

Daily Dose

1. Celebrating my son's birthday early.
2. My baby is about to turn five.
3. Eskimo kisses from my son.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

My new hobby--sleep

I can’t imagine what life would be like not tired. In the last few weeks, it seems like I stay tired. I am beginning to wonder if this is how my life is suppose to be. It is sad to leave work, come home and have to take a nap to get through the rest of the evening. And God help me if I have a meeting to cover.

With the new editor, there has been a complete revamping of how things are done. I feel like every brain cell is being used everyday. I am still adjusting to the new beat, duties and other assignments. It is a lot.

My new adobe still looks like a hoarder’s paradise. I didn't have to work today or tomorrow so I did some cleaning. I have managed to put most of my clothes together. The big goal is to get the second bed cleaned off. Most off my clothes are put away.

I know I am depressed. October and November are busy months here so my doctor and therapy appointments are the day before Thankgsiving when works out since I am not going home. I can’t deal with family right now.

JJ’s birthday is on the 23rd with him turning the big 5. It seems like yesterday I was holding a tiny him who is getting taller each day. I have included some pictures from the beach trip of him. And maybe one of me.

JJ in the fort of pillows he made.

JJ playing Connect Four. I tried to play a game with him. He didn't like the rules so he made up up his own game.

JJ took this photo of me with his cell phone.

This is where we stayed. We stayed on the ground floor. Awesome place!





My birthday cake from JJ. He helped me blow out the candles.

I am still hanging in there. And I am trying to catch up on the blogs. Thanks for all of the support!


Daily Dose

1. Finding White Chocolate covered oreos. Delicious.

2. Indulging my craving for a Nachos Supreme with double meat and sour cream while watching Notting Hill.

3. Still keeping my head above water.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Making fashionistas proud

I am so glad that the elections are over. It is the worst time to be a reporter. Last night was a late night filled with coffee, chocolate and lots of junk food.

Today, I went shopping with coworker T and her next door neighbor. We hit some the Salvation Army and the Goodwill in Virginia. I did some serious damage but have tons of clothes, shoes, a bag and some books. For the next few months, I am going to look good. I tried on some skinny jeans that looked great on me. I didn't cringe too much in the mirror. I am slowly becoming more comfortable with myself. My first therapy appointment is the day before Thanksgiving.

While shopping I felt like Carrie Bradshaw and the gang. It was fun. There were a few anxious moments but I did pretty well. For dinner, we hit Olive Garden. The salad and breadsticks were good. I ordered a chicken and pasta dish I couldn't pronounce and did pretty good. The rest will be for lunch tomorrow with the gang in the breakroom. I am officially a member of the lunch patrol. Overall, I am hanging in there. There was a moment I wanted to call my mom and tell her about a dress I wanted. I think she will approve of it and those red heels.

Daily Dose

1. A good Goodwill is AWESOME.

2. Olive Garden rocks!

3. Being a better friend to myself.

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