Returning Home

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I am here in Pickle Land so much has changed but so much has stayed the same. This is a picture of me and my guys. Not many pictures were taken of me in the past year. And I'm glad. But I am proud of this one because I am healthy, happy and with my guys.


I am staying with Dream Diva in her home. She has mad decorating skills because her home looks like some out a decorating magazine. Tomorrow, I am going to a consignment shop that i have missed since going.

On the job front--I am one of 160 applicants for the job. People as far away as San Diego have applied. I have a slight edge--I know the area and my former boss works for the paper. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed and saying my prayers. I am glad I am in recovery. I can appreciate things more. I stopped at Chick Filet for an eight piece nuggets meal with fries and a medium lemonade. The chili dog could wait. It was delicious. So far, I am having a great time. Just finished watching Harper's Island. I am challenging myself a lot this weekend. I will eat with others. I will socialize. I will get dress in front of a mirror. I will shake up my routine. And I will enjoy myself and not listen to my ED. Only one more day until chicken on a stick. I am salivating just thinking about it. Maybe, I'll get two.

Daily Dose

1. Chick Filet. I love the chicken salad.
2. Dream Diva. A really great friend

Comments

  1. KimApril 24, 2009 at 12:48 AM

    Good luck with the job prospect! I'll be thinking positive thoughts. Your little boy is so adorable. I love the picture :)

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  2. sarahApril 24, 2009 at 7:51 AM

    Good luck on the job hunt; the one I desperately wanted bottomed out on me, but I guess that just means I need to keep pushing (I suppose it's a bit like pushing through recovery after a slip)...

    On a completely different note, congrats on your excitement about recovery - and even on feeling proud of a photo. The power of those things cannot be stated enough.

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  3. AnonymousApril 24, 2009 at 9:05 AM

    Thanks for the complitments on the house! I can't wait to get some paint on the walls...the all white has got to go....some color is in bad need! Anyway...I have worked hard over the past several weeks trying to get things in better order, you know. Things got really out of control during the time that the oldest was sick. I still need to clean the closets and was hoping to do that while you are with us, as I am sure there are some things in there that we can send back to JJ with you.

    Really good that you are here!

    I am honored to be a part of your daily dose.

    :)

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  4. xxxApril 24, 2009 at 10:04 AM

    Hello beautiful woman... so nice to see a lovely photo of you and your family.
    Great to read that you are having a happy time and I wish you well with your job interview.

    No matter what happens enjoy all that you have.
    You look beautiful.

    best wishes Ribbon :-)

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