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“Place your hand over your heart, can you feel it? That is called purpose. You’re alive for a reason so don’t ever give up.” – Unknown
    Recent events have made me think a lot.
Last week, a man in Pickleland drove around railroad crossing arm and parked on the railroad tracks. Then he got out of his vehicle and took beside it as an oncoming train bear down on him. 
Suicide by train. It was big news here and happened about a mile and half from my apartment.   
Apparently, the 27-year-old man was depressed and distraught about a relationship and other things. In his mind, there was no other way out.  
It hit home with me because I have been in his shoes. I have been so depressed and overwhelmed that suicide seemed like the best solution.

“When people kill themselves, they think they’re ending the pain, but all they’re doing is passing it on to those they leave behind.” – Jeannette Walls

Thankfully in some of my lowest points, I reached out to others for help.
Life is not easy. We really don’t know what another person is dealing with or going through.
And I wouldn’t want my son to wonder for the rest of his life or to blame himself.
I feel bad for the young man’s mother who came to the scene of the incident and knew it was her son.
This is something I have thought about for days.
I am going through some rough stuff right now. And there have been some dark days but I continue to put one foot in front of the other.
There is a sweet Iron Man fan who someday will do great things. And I want to be there to see him do it.

Need help? Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Day 28—I stood up for myself and set some boundaries with others. Day 29—Face a fear. I spoke to a class of high school students. Day 30—Learn about a new possible hobby. I went to a knitting class. I was way out of my league.

Things have slowed down a lot in the past weeks. This week will be busy but not as crazy as other weeks.

1. Grape soda
2. There is no shame in walking through the stacks at the library to calm down.
3. Vacation time is coming!!!


  1. That is so dang sad. You have to be in so, so, much pain to do that and at the same time it is a selfish act.


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