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27-year-old Jackie visits 40-year-old Jackie

Last week was a very low week for me. After being sick and spending the weekend with old friend and nesting, I decided to start the week with a new outlook. Plus, I see my new therapist next week.

As I continue the job of unpacking and organizing my life, I came across a list of things about me that I made when I was 27 for a new boyfriend. I remember making this list because Robb wanted to know more about me. As I read it, I realized how much I had changed in some ways but stayed the same in others.

I am going to share this list with updated notes in red.

Who is Jackie?
--I have never drank coffee. I started drinking it out of necessity in August of 2009 when I had to be at work at 7 a.m.
--I love music. This has never changed. I still make cd mixes for road trips.
--I hate to sweat. Still do.
--I love hot baths. Now I love hot showers.
--I have a really serious thing for office supply stores. I still do especially when things are on clearance.
--I love daises. Still do.
--Even though I am an adult, I can’t let my feet dangle over the edge of the bed at night. Too much Stephen King. Most definitely.
--I love taco salad. Yes especially from El Matazlan in Mount Olive, N.C.
--I fell in love for the first time when I was 19.
--I am magazine junkie. Yes,  there is always a magazine with me.
--I don’t FEEL or look 27. I feel 40 but don’t look like it.
--I have one sibling, a brother, who is younger than me… and lived to tell about it. Three months after writing this, I found my father.  I gained two brothers and two sisters.
--I love ranch dressing. I consider it the new ketchup of the world. I still love it especially bacon ranch dressing.
--I own a lot of hats. Everyone needs a trademark. Occasionally, I will wear a hat. My trademark now is having lots of writing pens.
--I like singing. My pitch isn’t great and neither is my voice but I still like it especially in the car after a long day of work. I still sing in the shower and the car. And I sound like Beyonce on a very bad day.
--I grew up in Clover (this town sucks) South Carolina. I still stand by this sentence.
--I used to hate grits when I was a child. I hide them in napkins on the chair beside me at breakfast. One day, my mother sat in that chair. I’m still alive. I love grits as an adult.
--I learned how to read when I was four. This something my son inherited.
--I failed my driver’s license test six times due to parallel parking. I  still can’t parallel park to save my life.
--I am a night person. If left to my own devices, I would stay up until 6 a.m. and sleep until 2 p.m. Now I tend to stay up to 11 p.m. and out of bed by 10 a.m.
--I don’t wear makeup. It gets in the way. I still believe this.
--I love to dance, though I am not particuraly good at it. I love having solo living room dance parties.
--I am a journalist. Still am and damn proud of it.
--There’s always a song stuck in my head. Right now, it is “Shake It Off” by Taylor Swift.
--My most prized possessions are a photo of my grandmother and a James Dean clock. This has changed. I still cherish the photo of my grandmother along with a photo album of my son’s baby photos.
--I am a voracious reader. Most definitely with several library cards.
--Centipedes give me the creeps. YES.
--I’ve never seen “It’s A Wonderful Life.” I finally saw it two years ago.
--My mom and I have a shaky relationship. We have since I can remember. I love her but she sure can make my life miserable. I am very glad my mother and I were able to mend our relationship and become close before she died in 2010.
--I try not to miss Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Law and Order. Now it is Criminal Minds, Blacklist and Grey’s Anatomy.
--I am obsessed with chicken salad sandwiches especially from Chick Fil A. My new favorite place to get chicken salad is Elias’s in Roanoke Rapids, N.C.
--The idea of being pregnant and actually giving birth frightens the shit out of me. But that’s the only way any of us gets born so I keep telling myself I can handle it. I did it and have the most amazing son.

This was a nice trip down memory lane. Robb and I broke up after eight months. But at least I have the list.

1. Iced coffee from McDonald's.
2. Leaving for early enough to avoid school buses!
3. Feeling so much better!


  1. So cool to see how you have changed and not changed!! Centipedes are awful. I found a millipede in my office last week. It was just awful. That grits story is hilarious and I also cannot parallel park to save my life!!

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