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Reflections of myself

I have never liked to look in the mirror or to take photos. I guess at times I just don't like what I see looking back at me. This is something I have been working on for a few years now.



The photo above was taken Friday while I was working on a day trip story for the magazine my newspaper puts out. I went to an art center that was 45 minutes from RR. It was one of the best day trip I have taken since I took over doing the section three years ago. It was just wonderful. The owners and the artists at the center were wonderful people. It was a trip filled with good vibes and good energy.

For the first time in a long time, I felt like myself and I liked myself. When I took that photo, I didn't cringe or pick out my faults. Instead, I saw someone I very proud of and who is a fighter. I know everything isn't always sunshine and puppy dogs. But I am okay with this. I could see possibilities and feel hopeful about life. It is a wonderful feeling. And I came away from the trip with a possible freelance photography job.

Another I realized as I am writing this, I haven't been as sick as I was in the past. I know I am on the right path with my struggles with ED. So far, I have had a slight cold. During one bad year, I had six sinus infections. The more I chip away at the hold ED has on me, the more I am starting to enjoy life. Things are not exactly the way I want them but I am healthy, have a roof over my head and have a job. Plus, I have a beautiful, amazing son who inspires me to be a better person. I am so thankful for the blessing I have. I don't know what this year has in store for me but whatever it is, I will meet it head on.

DAILY DOSE

1. Being able to see the possibilities in life.

2. Taking a photo of myself without cringing.

3. Downton Abbey Sunday!

Comments

  1. I don't doubt for a minute, that you will indeed meet it head on.

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  2. What a good place to be right now and it can only get better. Keep thinking those good thoughts and working hard.

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  3. Good for you! accept the things you can't change The courage to change the things you can,And wisdom to know the difference. I think your year is going to be great. looking forward to your posts.

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