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Reflections of myself

I have never liked to look in the mirror or to take photos. I guess at times I just don't like what I see looking back at me. This is something I have been working on for a few years now.

The photo above was taken Friday while I was working on a day trip story for the magazine my newspaper puts out. I went to an art center that was 45 minutes from RR. It was one of the best day trip I have taken since I took over doing the section three years ago. It was just wonderful. The owners and the artists at the center were wonderful people. It was a trip filled with good vibes and good energy.

For the first time in a long time, I felt like myself and I liked myself. When I took that photo, I didn't cringe or pick out my faults. Instead, I saw someone I very proud of and who is a fighter. I know everything isn't always sunshine and puppy dogs. But I am okay with this. I could see possibilities and feel hopeful about life. It is a wonderful feeling. And I came away from the trip with a possible freelance photography job.

Another I realized as I am writing this, I haven't been as sick as I was in the past. I know I am on the right path with my struggles with ED. So far, I have had a slight cold. During one bad year, I had six sinus infections. The more I chip away at the hold ED has on me, the more I am starting to enjoy life. Things are not exactly the way I want them but I am healthy, have a roof over my head and have a job. Plus, I have a beautiful, amazing son who inspires me to be a better person. I am so thankful for the blessing I have. I don't know what this year has in store for me but whatever it is, I will meet it head on.


1. Being able to see the possibilities in life.

2. Taking a photo of myself without cringing.

3. Downton Abbey Sunday!


  1. I don't doubt for a minute, that you will indeed meet it head on.

  2. What a good place to be right now and it can only get better. Keep thinking those good thoughts and working hard.

  3. Good for you! accept the things you can't change The courage to change the things you can,And wisdom to know the difference. I think your year is going to be great. looking forward to your posts.


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