Monday, July 23, 2012

Vacation time!!!!!

It is the moment I have been waiting for almost a month--my weeklong vacation. I am not doing anything special except spending time with JJ.

There is so much uncertainty in my life with trying to get closer to JJ and pack up my apartment. It will be nice to have a few days to just relax and decompress.

But before my vacation can really begin, I have a pit stop. I have a job interview tomorrow morning so I must leave early and looking professional. But after this,  it is my time to do whatever!

I will take plenty of photos and maybe some video of our time together. Have a great week! I know I will!

1. Vacation time!
2. Seeing JJ!
3. Vacation marvelous vacation!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Surprise visit with JJ

JJ being JJ!
Of late, my days off involve sleeping. But I did something different last Sunday. My son was two hours away near Burlington, NC so I happily gave up sleeping to see him.  And it was so worth it. Seeing him has re-energized me so much.

We played super heroes, saw the Spiderman movie and went to McDonald's. All in all, it was the best day I have had in a long time. Of course, anytime with JJ is good time. I took tons of photos for my photo album but I had to share two. I want you to see how much he has grown. He's six but looks so much older.

Me goofing around with him. He is almost as tall as me.

Relaxing after a day of fun!

In a few more days, I will be on vacation. I am not sure what I am going to do. But whatever I do, it will involved my son.


1. Spending an unscheduled day with JJ.

2. Vacation countdown has begun. Five days to go.

3. It is only 95 degrees and not 100 degrees.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Best. Week. In A Long time

I am in an amazing mood. This has been a really good week. Why? I am a finalists for two jobs. I have a phone interview Friday for a position 30 minutes away from JJ at a weekly newspaper and 45 minutes for another position. I am thisclose to being near my baby.

Today, I got to film youth at a camp during a choreographed dance to "Party Rock." It was awesome. It was one of those moments where I love my job.

Also, I put a rude person in their place. I was at an event taking photos. 
Man--I haven't seen you in forever.
Me--You haven't been in the right places.
Man--Something has changed about you. Have you gotten taller or have you gain weight?
Me--I have gained some weight. But this is not something you point out to a person. What if I told you that something has changed. Oh, I know you became a douche bag. 

And then I walked off. I know it wasn't a nice thing to say but why would a person so that. I have to deal with ED's voice on and off throughout the day. I don't need that crap. I am healthy. I am strong. And damn it, I look good. 


1. Cookies and cream yogurt from Sweet Frog with caramel and crushed pieces of reese cups.

2. Refusing to let anyone treat me bad!

3. Thisclose to being near JJ!

Friday, July 6, 2012

Survival of the fittest

Being a reporter is something a person must want to do. You are not doing it for the money. I do it because I want people to be informed about what is going on their community. When I came to RR, I took a pay cut because I wanted to work at a daily newspaper. I don’t regret it. I have to admit the last few months have been rough. My expenses have increased while my pay has stayed the same. I used my savings to get by. It has been frustrating but I am surviving--barely. Each time, I get paid I make sure child support is paid and I have medication. If those two are covered, then the rest will fall in place.

I am writing this because writing my feelings has always made me feel better. It was the reason I started this blog when I was unemployed. I needed a voice. 
I am tired of struggling. I have been told maybe I need to find a new line of work. But what would I do. Writing is my talent. I have worked in restaurants as a server but I suck at basic customer service. I try really hard but I not the outgoing girl. But give me a pad and a pen, I can tell a person’s life story.

Thank God for my meds because I don’t think I could make it. I don’t want to move home without a job. So I have made some plans.
Plan A involves getting another job closer to home. With the price of gas, I have cut down on the number of trips home to see JJ. 
But it looks like maybe Plan A won’t happen so I have a Plan B.
This involves getting a part-time job during the weekends. I applied at a Subway convenience store but didn’t get it.

I have been careful about what jobs and where I apply because as a reporter I am little noticeable in the community. So I am looking in Virginia.
Sometimes we do what we have to do to survive. I have given up the extras like cable and internet. I cook more and eat out less. I have cut every corner I can think of. I have sold my DVDs and eaten Ramen noodles. I had to make a choice between electricity or having air conditioning. Electricity won so I have been using fans to keep cool. Thank God I am a work-a-holic so I stay cool for the hottest part of the day. 

On the days I don't work, I usually visit the library or work as a cooling station. This weekend, I am participating in a yard sale to make some extra cash.
I am not looking for pity. I just needed to say all of this because deep down inside I am scared. It is getting harder and harder to make ends meet. I just don't know what to do.
And during all of this, ED has tried to come calling but I  have shown her the door. I don't have time for it.

1. Lounging around the house in a bikini.
2. Hydrate, hydrate, hydrate!
3. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger!

Monday, July 2, 2012

Tired but happy

I am tired today. But it is a happy tired. This weekend, I was a social butterfly. My activities range from seeing Magic Mike to having a reunion with former co-workers. I  had a good time. I can barely keep my eyes open right now. I see a bed in my future.

Magic Mike was pretty good. There is nothing like seeing Chatum Tatum and other good looking guys in a throng. I went with a group of females from work. I have never seen that many women inside one movie theater. It was pretty good movie. This was Friday night.

On Saturday, I threw some clothes in a bag and  headed to Pickleland for the reunion. It was good seeing my old friends. It reminds me of a lot of good memories. A lot of them hadn't seen me since I have gained weight. And boy were they happy. I got a lot of comments on how healthy I look. When I lived in Pickleland, ED and I were deeply intertwined. I am still amazed that I survive. I mean I arrived there in 2001, wearing a girl's size 18 and left wearing a size 0. And now, I am healthy. I mean I still have issues but I am in a much better place than then.

My friend, T, had a pool but I am not ready to put on the bikini. Maybe next summer!


1. Talking to my son at 2 a.m.-- He has no concept of time.

2. Mini oreos-- a sweet treat

3. Seeing old friends and reminiscing about the good ole days!

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