Excitement is brewing

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Funny faces while decorating the tree.

I am so excited  because in more than a week I will see my son for Christmas. I  can hardly stand it. He is just excited except he is thinking about Christmas and Santa.

In eight days, I will go to SC to pick him up and bring him to RR with me for a week. To say, I am excited, it is the understatement of the year. I have planned a loose agenda for us because I still have to work while he is here. My boss was sweet to let me set up the spare room in our newsroom as a spot for JJ.

Fun at the Tot Park.


He will have his own space with a computer, note pad and other items to keep him occupied. And he will go out on several assignments so he can see what Mommy does when he is not around. I wanted him to see so he doesn't think I am just enjoying the good life without him.

It is hard talking to him on the phone because I want to blurt out that he is coming to see me. A recent conversation went like this:

Me: So what do you want for Christmas from me?
JJ: Honestly, I would love to come to RR to see you. I need a vacation. First grade is tough.
Me: Really? RR is kind of boring.
JJ: It's not boring with you there Mommy.

I am still amazed at how much he loves me. There are times I feel like the worst mom ever. But I know there is a sweet seven-year-old in SC who thinks I am awesome. I love my little guy. I wouldn't trade him for anything in the world.

Celebrating Christmas early.



DAILY DOSE
1. Homemade chocolate bon bons made by a co-worker

 2. Being able to see my bed after cleaning all of the junk off of it.

 3. Countdown to JJ time has begun.

Comments

  1. Sia JaneDecember 17, 2012 at 4:01 PM

    So beautiful <3

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  2. UnknownDecember 17, 2012 at 4:21 PM

    What a sweetie!

    I just wanted to tell you how much I admire you. As an MRA, I b**** plenty about self-styled "heroic single mothers," and seeing your struggles is part of the reason I despise them. You don't expect anyone to fix your life for you, yet you are honest about your needs for emotional support and affirmation - needs we all have to one degree or another. I consider YOU a heroic woman, single mother or not.

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  3. Cece @Mahogany DriveDecember 17, 2012 at 4:57 PM

    Yeah! So glad you will get to see him. How cool that your job will allow him to come with you. You are his mama, you show him that you love him and he loves you right back!

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