Monday, September 10, 2012

It is all in how you perceive yourself

I will be the first to admit that when I look in the mirror, I don't always like what I see.  I will never be friends with my mirror. I have worked hard to maintain my current weight but I still have some issues.

And when dealing with ED issues, I am thankfully to have supportive friends who can provide a reality that I don't quite see yet. For instance, I found a really cool yard sale on Friday that I had a lot of cute clothes including a H & M dress for 50 cents. All clothes were 50 cents and an awesome pair of combat boots for $5. I felt like such a badass when I tried them on. I am going to enjoy those.

Anyway, I found this really cute halter dress that I thought I would look good in.
Me: Is this just the cutest dress?
T: Yes, but it is too big for you.
Me: No, it will fit.
T: No, Jackie it will not. That dress is a 2X. You are not a 2X. You are a large. I know at times you don't see what I see. I see someone who will swallowed up in that dress.

Then T took the dress from me and gave to someone else to buy. She is right. I see myself is being huuuuge. I feel like I am a 16 or 18 when I am only 8 or 10.  This tells me I still have work to do.

Recovery is hard but I am so grateful to have supportive friends willing to step and provide a much needed reality check.

DAILY DOSE

1. Getting a ton of clothes for the fall for $11.

2. Working to perfect the perfect slider. I had fun eating the rejects.

3. Trying become friends with the mirror. We are taking it slow.

1 comment:

  1. I have no idea what I look like either! What's in the mirror and what is reality are often two different things. It really is a work in progress.

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