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Meds are okay!!

I have always has a prickly relationship with medications. It bothers me, for one, that some little pills help to keep me balanced. Through the years, I have been on and off various medications. A few weeks ago, I had a realization that I am one of those people who will always have to be on medication. Currently, I take remeron and seroquel. The combination regulates my appetite and my mental well being. Without them, I am an angry, doom and gloom spewing meal restricting bitch.

I guess it has always bothered me that I couldn't help myself on my own. It has taken me many years and years of mistakes to realize it is okay to ask for help. Medications are key in my recovery. I can't do it alone. If I could, I wouldn't be writing this.

In other news, I have applied for a position at a newspaper that is a hour and half from JJ. I am working on application packet for a job at the beach. And some others have come open. I have started preliminary packing, I have a lot of stuff for one person especially books. I will miss RR but I will be able to see JJ a lot more.


1. Adele--I love her music. She is so AWESOME!

2. Strawberry eclair ice cream bars

3. Taking life one day at a time!


  1. I am contacting you as a recovery blogger, hoping that you might be able to help me with something. I'm looking for people who experience their ED or "ED voice" as female to share written reflections (stories, letters, poems, or whatever) based on that personification. I've noticed that people in recovery are reluctant to refer to their eating disorders as female, to separate themselves from pro-ana/pro-mia groups. I want to "reclaim" female personifications from the pro-ED camp by publicizing recovery-oriented descriptions of a female ED, to make these descriptions just as much a part of recovery dialogue as the popular (male) "Ed" image. I hope you will consider writing something, and/or share this information with others who might want to contribute. I can be reached at, and more information is available at

  2. Good luck with the job and I must say that since I've been hearing so much about Adele lately, I'd better check her out! Peace.

  3. I'm happy that you have come to be okay with taking medications. I know that I also will be on some medications the rest of my life.

    Strawberry eclair bars??? Where? (I want in on that!)


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