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Sick and tired of being sick and tired!!

Striking my best pose in my shirt dress and green pumps.

I  had an moment this morning in the shower. I am tired of being unhappy and depressed.  So I decided I am doing something about it. I put on a black shirt dress (that looks awesome on me) and some cute green pumps. And I strutted my stuff today. For the first time in weeks, I didn't feel frumpy or down on how I looked. In fact, I thought I look damn good. 

I am tired of being stressed about my job. I am tired of self-defeating thoughts about my appearance and weight gain. And I am tired of being tired. It ends today. Today, I took back  my life. From this moment on things will be done my terms. If the head honcho comes in May and decides my job is cut, I will shed some tears and pack up my things. But it will be because of budget and not because of job performance. I am a damn good reporter. I work hard to cover my huge beat. 

There will be no more waddling in self pity on my couch. For the last few days, I have been putting on my headphones and heading the pavement. The same goes with ordering fast food and eating out. I have gain some weight. This is a good thing but I would like to get back into shape. This means walking, cooking healthy meals and drinking more water. I haven't had an orange soda in a week.  Moderation is the key. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired so I am doing something about it. 

And I will document my progress including my cute outfits.
I don't want to be negative and unhappy anymore. It's time to let the sunshine in. Score Me--1 and ED--0!!

I love these shoes!!

1. My cute green shoes. I felt like a million bucks.

2. Not cringing at photos of myself. I  have to remember baby steps.

3. Seeing a recipe in a cookbook and making it instead of dreaming about it.


  1. you look stunning!!
    please keep this awesome attitude up you deserve such moments and such beautiful shoes :)

  2. Good for you! And I'm loving those green pumps...


  3. Glad to hear something clicked and you are going to take action. It's great that you are eating but eating unhealthy stuff isn't good for your insides either. You'll feel great when you are fit, healthy and active. Keep us posted.

  4. you do look awesome! :) thankyou for the comment, so very steps xx

  5. looking splendid in that outfit and those terrific green shoes! I love a proud lady with self-confidence! NOTHING becomes a woman better than that. I hope the attitude is still right there with you. Take the lead, step by step you can do it!

    (oh and btw I changed my blog's url. it's now please follow me ^^)


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