Wishing I was still in bed and other Monday adventures

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My get and go is still in bed this morning. This is price one pays when they put really good sheets on the bed. I didn’t want to get up this morning. I just wanted to stay in bed and enjoy it. Note to self--must win lottery. My weekend was semi-productive when I wasn’t sleeping. I cleaned and mop both the kitchen and bathroom. I  made a homemade pasta meal with chicken, rotina pasta, a cheese sauce and onions. I was pretty proud of it. I am no Paula Deen but I did okay.
Threw out a 39 gallon garbage bag full of stuff. 

In nine days, JJ turns the big six and then he will hopefully come up here for a few days. Honestly, I am starting to lose hope. I think the husband is having second thoughts. I am trying to control my anger. I know the holiday are going to be rough since this is the first year without his mother. But don’t get my hopes up only to dash them. I miss my mother also. Thanksgiving was our holiday. And it will never be the same without her. I was told that JJ has two weeks off for Christmas. I don’t have that time off for Christmas. Time off at Christmas is a big no-no. Sometimes I just want scream. 

Found a pawn shop here that is selling three dvds for $5. I found some that I  hadn’t seen. I am a major book person with books all around my room. I’ll have to post a picture. I love waking up and seeing my book shelves. It helps me get centered each morning. I like watching movies but if there is a choice between buying a book or a dvd. The book always wins. This weekend, I am going with a friend from to watching Breaking Dawn, part 1. It is not a priority movie to see but I know K just lost her dog of 14 years and she is pretty bum. Not mention, she is getting over pneumonia. Sometimes, you just need a movie watching buddy so I will go. Besides, she has been talking about this movie for a year. She is hyped and I am a little more subdued about it.

It is almost lunch time so I think I will head home for some tomato bisque soup and a grilled cheese sandwich. And then sneak in a little nap in my beautiful bed.

Daily Dose
1. My bed
2. I am glad for the option to make choices.
3. Wondering when Cowboys and Aliens comes out on dvd. I need my Daniel Craig fix.

Comments

  1. SairsNovember 14, 2011 at 2:35 PM

    Happy birthday to JJ, hope he has an awesome day :)
    *hugs*
    Sarah

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