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The countdown to JJ has begun

Only two more days before I go on vacation!!!!! I have never in my life wanted some time off so bad. The last few weeks have been crazy and hectic. But today, I made a new friend. Her name is Betty. Betty liked me for me and was content to allow me to pat her.

I spend some time at a learning farm where I met all kinds of animals from Llamas and peacocks to miniatures horses and sheep. It was hot as hell but I had a great time. I think I will take JJ there next week.
This is Betty. She is so friendly and  a camera hog.

We are greeting each other.

So far, everything is set for him to come up with me for a visit. I am trying not to get my hopes up to much because something always prevents him coming to RR. So keep your fingers cross for me. I can't help it but I am so excited. This week has been much better than last week.

Last week, for every three people I encountered, two would ask me if I was pregnant. It was a lot for one person to take. It resulted in me being grumpy with the world and crying a lot. My boss realized what was  happening and we had a chat. He suggested walking three days a week at 45 minutes each time. I feel much better. The walking is good because it helps me to clear my head. I have started getting up early because it is more cooler in the am than the pm.  My med dose has been increased and I am taking vitamins. I feel much healthier and not as self conscious. So far this week, only two people have asked me. I try to have a sense of humor about it.
Even though, I have a weird expression on my face. I feel good. Plus, I like how healthy I look in this photo.


1. Spending an afternoon at a farm. And I got paid to do it.

2. In a few days, I will be with JJ.

3. For the first time in weeks, I felt good about myself.


  1. I have put on a fair bit of weight and I find it really hard coming from an ED to where I am now. I am a tiny bit overweight but it doesn't look bad on me and I am not obsessive anymore about what I eat. That's part of the problem/solution in recovery, you put on weight. It's just dealing with it that sucks. I too am doing the walking thing for 30 minutes three times a week. I walked yesterday and I felt a lot better. When tax time comes July/August is when we usually get our money, I am getting a Wii and a Wii Fit. I hope to bring some fun into my exercise and be able to exercise no matter the whether. I hope you get to have JJ and Betty looks cute :)

  2. lol... when you said "camera hog" my first thought was, "She's a ham!"
    i swear i'm vegetarian and was not thinking of eating your new friend :]
    have a lovely and well-earned break!!

  3. I'm so happy you get to see JJ!!! And I am so grateful you are healthy. Please remember how important that is, and how much you have gained by becoming healthy.


  4. Not only do you look healthy, you look beautiful! Glad things are going well for you and you're able to handle the difficult situations. You are so strong; keep fighting!


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