Party like it's 2011

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This is my last post for 2010. I am ready to see this year go. I have to go on record as it being the worst year of my life. I am about to face a new year with new possibilities but without my biggest supporter.

I wanted to thank everyone for all of their support and kind words during this year. It really mean a lot to me.

I wish I could say that ED hasn't reared her ugly head in the past few weeks but she has. The remeron has given me back my appetite, which made me go on an eating spree. A spree that has added a few pounds to me.

Last night, I looked in the mirror. I saw the increase and had a minor breakdown. For the first time, I am going to have to be serious about exercise. My metabolism is pretty much shot so I am looking at my options, they range from swimming to maybe be Zumba. It will require me to do some work but I am ready because I wanted to be healthy. Overall, I feel pretty decent about myself. ED is trying but 95 percent of the time I shut her out. Last night, she managed to get inside my head.

I am working hard. I see so many possibilities for 2011--career, professional and personal. Don't worry I will keep you posted.

Daily Dose

1. Anti-social me is going to a party. I will make sure someone takes a photo of me.

2. I cooked. I made my version of sloppy joes with ground turkey.

3. Have a Happy New Year! See you in 2011!

Comments

  1. CeCeDecember 31, 2010 at 12:01 PM

    Honey, I feel your pain. I totally ruined my metabolism years ago. TOTAL shut down and then I had to exercise to get it going again...when i didn't want to. I was afraid that I had done it again but I'm not sure. Anyhow, I've been exercising because I've been off and it's been great. But I really NEED to keep it up after break and it's hard. Here is to a fresh new year for you!! It has to be better right???

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  2. SairsDecember 31, 2010 at 3:48 PM

    I know it's really hard to ignore sometimes but it's good that you have ED under control at least 95% of the time, which is certainly a good start. I never thought I'd be happy to put on weight but it is so much easier than I thought. I think my ED was mainly around because of my depression, which had been untreated since January last year [2010, Australia is already in new year]. Now that I'm happy, it's not a problem. I hope you have an awesome new year!
    *hugs*
    Sarah

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  3. Angela Elain GambrelDecember 31, 2010 at 5:25 PM

    Tell ED to shut up. You look beautiful to me!!!!

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  4. Angela Elain GambrelDecember 31, 2010 at 10:08 PM

    P.S. I'm with you on this being the worst year of my life. Every month something happened to make my anorexia worse.

    Good-bye and good riddance 2010!!!! Here's to 2011 and a new start!

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