Friday, October 1, 2010

Today was a good day

For the first time in a long time, I had a good day. It started out rough. It was rainy and I just didn't want to get out of bed. But thoughts of being fired and having no money are good motivators. Eventually, the sun came out and it was a beautiful day. And I enjoyed it. We have to keep our overtime down so I got to leave work at noon. I stuck around for an hour and had lunch with D and everyone else.

As I write this, I am listening to different songs on iTunes radio. It feels good to start to feel again. I have decided to give it a year at the work. And to make sure I will follow through, I am going apartment hunting next week with D and others. They know the area here so we are going apartment hunting. I miss having a closet, a stove and being able to open a window. I love being here at the motel but it's time to move on.

Asking for help has always been hard for me. Everyone is worried about me because of my past history. Honestly, I can't guaranteed that I will be okay. I am taking it day by day. Everyday, I get up and I go to work. I try not to make mistakes and do the best job I can. Yesterday, I admitted to D that I do eat one good meal each day--lunch. I am surrounded by people who are eating and who know my history. But once I head home, I usually go to bed. If food isn't within arms reach, I don't eat. So last night, D and her teenage daughters invited me to dinner at Pizza Hut. I had a great time even though the food and service sucked. They made me laugh.

I called the employee assistance number on the wall in our breakroom today. The therapist I was seeing is moving two hours away. So I have to start my search again. But it is worth it because if I continue on my current path, I will end up in the hospital. I do not want that. I am in the big leagues. I have friends and am finally starting to have a life. So I will be proactive.

Daily Dose

1. Soon I will have a closet. A closet.

2. String cheese is great. Or as JJ would say best. food. ever!

3. Grey's Anatomy is back and so good.

3 comments:

  1. I don't talk about it much but i have "food issues" of my own. For me being alone and left to my own devices causes a major slip into bad habits. I love string cheese too! We just ran out and I haven't made it to the grocery store so that kinda sucks. Glad it's a good day for you. One day at a time right?

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  2. Excellent choice of songs dear! I love 3 days grace and nickelback, and switchfoot is a band I lately discovered and I'm much excited about them!

    So Pizza Hut has bad service worldwide huh? haha I was there the other day with some friends and the waitress actually refused to take the bacon off my salad because it is so good and she couldn't believe I don't like it. Like, what???
    I had to remove it myself..
    anyway, I'm rambling.. one day at a time seems like it can work and I hope your closet will be soon full of awesome clothes!! nice clothes always make my day :)

    hang in there as strong as you can,
    post more often!!!

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  3. Good to hear that you're having a good day SG. And with lost finished, try out 'persons unknown'!

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