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How Silly Girl got her groove back

I am taking each day by day. I am slowly making the new space livable. The standards of the new boss are demanding but I am keeping my head above water. I am turning out some top notch stories. I stay busy and go home tired each night. We have told to keep our hours at 40 a week. If it was just two stories a day for each issue, I get it. It is two fairly in-depth stories along with special section work, impact stories and stories for that damn magazine. In my beat, there are four school districts with 29 schools, a community college, four private schools, a charter school and nine small towns.

At the same time, I am trying to have a social life. I have appointments for the next two weeks for therapy, getting a physical and having my dental needs addressed. Next weekend, I am going home for the first since the funeral to see my little guy and family.

For my birthday, I spend a day in Burlington, NC. It was nice and for the first time in weeks, I felt normal.  I had an iced coffee while reading books in Barnes and Noble and had lunch at Chili's. Then I went to Target and tried on some skinny jeans which scared me. Mirrors + tight pants=super anxiety. Instead I brought an orange sweater.  Then on the way home, I visited some awesome Goodwill stores and racked up on the clothing. All in all, it was an awesome day. A good way to spend my birthday. My mom would be proud. I brought two dresses.  So I am hanging in there.

Daily Dose

1. Mandarin chicken has become my favorite food.
2. There is no shame in seeking help.
3. Criminal Minds is scary good.

Comments

  1. Glad to hear you're hanging in there. Sounds like you're doing great with work and treating yourself well! So happy to hear that :)

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  2. Shopping and out to lunch! Sounds good. hang in there with work. Glad to hear you are getting your groove back.

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  3. I'm glad that you're doing okay :) Happy belated birthday! :)

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  4. You keep getting that groove SG!

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