Bittersweet Birthday

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Today, I turned the big 37. It was weird not getting an early morning birthday call from my mom. My friends and co-workers worked hard to make sure today was a great day for me. I was a princess at the newspaper. Complete with a tiara and several magic wands. I truly felt loved.

I am sorry I have written as much. My new responsibilities at work have kept me crazy busy. Along with moving. I looked for an apartment and ended up moving five doors down to a bigger room at the motel. I love the motel life. It suits me. I am buying a toaster oven and crock pot so I have more cooking options.

Overall, I am doing so-so. Over the weekend, I attended a festival with D and got my blood pressure checked and my weight. BP is fine but since June, I have lost 13 pounds. I haven't started my meds because I thought maybe I don't need them. But between the weight loss, lack of sleep at night and wanting to sleep too much during the day, I think meds are in order. I can honestly say it is ED that is keeping me from eating. I am just depressed because I miss my mommy.

Daily Dose
1. D baked me a cake for my birthday and decorated my desk with tons of princess stuff.
2. My new room is a mess but large and awesome. I have two windows and tons of lights.
3. I see my favorite little guy this weekend. We have a movie date.

Comments

  1. SairsOctober 13, 2010 at 3:37 AM

    Happy birthday. I hope you're week gets better and it does sound like meds sound like a good idea. I know that not everyone wants to take them, but 13 pounds sounds like too much to ignore.
    *hugs*
    Sarah

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  2. CeCeOctober 13, 2010 at 11:33 AM

    Happy B Day! Glad you've got some great co workers to make it a good day even though someone is missing. Living in a hotel sounds kinda cool! Work on getting yourself emotionally and physically better. You can do it.

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  3. AnonymousOctober 13, 2010 at 11:47 AM

    Happy birthday! Ur so young still!

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  4. Angela Elain GambrelOctober 13, 2010 at 6:35 PM

    Happy BIrthday! And congrats on the new and bigger space!

    *Hugs*
    Angela

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  5. annamariaOctober 19, 2010 at 9:43 AM

    HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
    oh I'm so late...sorry about that.
    lots of love dear!!

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