Assorted thoughts and ramblings

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I love Saturdays especially a Saturday I don't have to work. So today, for the first time in 10 years, I wore shorts. This has been a big year for me because I would never wear dresses, skirts and shorts. I didn't like the way my legs looked. Today, I wore shorts. We had a heat index of 109 degrees. I ran some errands during coolness of when it was 85 degrees. And it is suppose to be even hotter tomorrow. And I plan to enjoy the air condition splendor of my room.

I woke up this morning craving nachos. At first, I thought it was a fluke but I really wanted some nachos. So for lunch, I had  nacho bell grande from Taco Bell. I have never ordered one because of all of the ingredients. I ate everything but the tomatoes. 

For the longest time, I couldn't watch the Food Network or any type of food show. I would subsitute watching the show for eating. So I stopped watching because I was afraid. A few months ago, I watched a marathon of Top Chef. I was hooked.  I have come a long way because now I jot down names of dishes I might cook.  Top Chef--Washington DC is a can't miss for me. And I am becoming a big fan of Chopped on the Food Network. It is interesting what those people come up with in a few minutes. For example, making an appetizer with zucchini flowers, kiwi and chicken breasts.

When I was in high school, and before ED took over, I wanted to be a chef. I took all of the food service classes my school offered. I was accepted into Johnson and Wales University (a culinary college) in Rhode Island.  As ED took over, I lost my love of cooking.

My friends are surprised to find out I cook even though I live a motel. I have an electric skillet and a microwave. I plan to buy a crock pot and either a toaster oven or a convection oven. So I don't eat out as much as people think. But I do miss being able to bake a potato or some fish sticks. I love fish sticks and macaroni and cheese.

My mom is out of the hospital. I had a great conversation with her last night. She was hospitalized so she could gain weight and nutrients. My mom, before getting sick weigh between 150 to 170 pounds,  weighted 108. Her hospital stay got her up to 120. She weighs 10 pounds more than me. She finds out Monday from Dr. T if she will have chemo on Tuesday. I leave for home early Thursday morning. I come back on Sunday evening. I have a lot to do before my journey home but I am ready.

Daily Dose

1. Nacho Bell Grande from Taco Bell

2. Ice cream on a really hot day.

3. Be able to watch the Top Chef Marathon

Comments

  1. AdrienneWoodsJuly 24, 2010 at 10:33 PM

    I lovvvve nacho bell grandes! i sub beans for meat and eat it all (=

    ReplyDelete
  2. PTCJuly 25, 2010 at 6:21 PM

    Hi. Thanks for stopping by to say hi. I read a little bit of your blog. Did you seek any other treatment besides what you did in the study?

    ReplyDelete

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