Ultimately you walk the road alone

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I am still on the mend. The heat and humidity are stifling at times. I did an amazing interview with a cancer survivor today. He was awesome and I admire his strength. On Friday, I will be doing the coverage for Relay for Life. I have mixed feelings about this. I am still coming to terms about my mother's cancer battle. I guess I scared I will be overcome with emotion. There will be tons of cancer survivors. And I know my mom will never be in that category.

I have to do this because it's my weekend to work. I needed to get this off of my chest.

I love my job but things are getting weird. Soon there will be a new managing editor. I worry what he or she's expectations will be. Will I live up to them? Then I realize there is no point in stressing. I am good at what I do. I can't do much in life. Writing is my passion. Everyone has a story. Some have two or three stories but for the most part, everyone has a story. And it's my goal to them a way to tell that story. Even if it's about an 8 foot tall sunflower.

In lieu of the Daily Dose, I am going to give you 25 things that you don't know about me.

1. In the course of a day, I will use 5 to 10 different pens.
2. I don't like peaches.
3. I'm a PC not a Mac.
4. 2 a.m. is my favorite time of the day.
5. I'm not scared of clowns but they are not my favorite.
6. I have never been to the circus.
7. I can't use a hula hoop.
8. I only eat grape jelly on my peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
9. I love horror movies.
10. Secretly, I enjoy watching The Hills and The City.
11. I have never read the Lord of the Rings trilogy. I have no intentions of ever.
12. Reading Young Adult fiction relaxes me.
13. I hated rice as a kid but love it as an adult.
14. I am allergic to bananas.
15. I am not a big fan of Christmas.
16. Spring is my favorite season.
17. I have never liked beer.
18. I once killed a chicken.
19. I met my father for the first time at age 27.
20. I was in labor for five hours. I slept between contractions.
21. At one time, I was an excellent cook.
22. My favorite flower is a daisy.
23. I am afraid of frogs.
24. I like trying different flavors of milkshakes.
25. I think cheese in a can is the best invention ever.

Comments

  1. KimJune 24, 2010 at 2:01 PM

    Fun list! Don't worry too much about the new managing editor's expectations. I know I tend to do this, and it just makes me crazy! Feel confident in yourself because you are so obviously a wonderful employee/journalist. Change is never really easy though, so I understand the anxiety!

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  2. annamariaJune 25, 2010 at 4:43 AM

    hey, sorry I haven't been commenting a lot..
    I am glad to hear you are doing okay, and don't get too stressed about the new managing editor :)

    It was fun reading these 25 things about you, I can totally agree with 10 and 11 haha and I laughed so much about that hula hoop!!

    everything will be okay you should know!!! :D

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  3. Angela Elain GambrelJune 25, 2010 at 11:46 PM

    I remember the first time I covered Relay for Life - my mom is a four-time cancer survivor and my dad had colon cancer. So it was quite an emotional event for me, particularly the candle lighting ceremony and the little paper bags with the names of loved ones lost to cancer. I cried and struggled to control it as I worked on the story.

    Remember, it's okay for journalists to have feelings too. Many stories tore at my heart, but I believe I would have missed out on some very important lessons and inspiration had I avoided the "tough" stories. Now that I'm out of PHP, I hope to start freelancing again (I love grad school but I do miss writing an occasional article here and there!)

    Just remember to take care of yourself!

    {{{Hugs}}}
    Angela

    (I accidently put this under the wrong post at first - that's why I deleted it from the other post. I meant it for here.)

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