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In search of jeans

First, I would like thank everyone for their kind words about my mom. She is quite a trooper. Today, wasn't a good day but not completely bad either. She describes it as "not the best day but not the worst." She was having trouble keeping food on her stomach. But finally some mash potatoes with her. KFC potatoes and gravy always work in a pinch.

I am worried about her appetite. She is eating next to nothing. The chemo is trying to kick her butt. I think there are two more sessions left. I pray that she will make it. If this continues, she will be back in the hospital again. She has already lost so much weight.

Most of the day has been spent watching old tv shows like Good Times, the Jefferson and Soul Train. It brought back many memories.

I decided to hit Goodwill and see if I could find some more jeans. Since I started the meds, my appetite has been more consistent, which means I have gained some weight. I'm not freaking about it two much but I don't like my clothes to be snug. But I am picky about jeans. I tried on 26 pairs of jeans and four pairs of khakis. I ended with a pair of khakis, a white t-shirt, a cool pink and white button down shirt and cool gray t-shirt with a hood. Not bad for a non-shopper.

I have spend the rest of evening trying to write an article for the magazine but gave after my nephew asked a million questions. Right now, I am hiding out in a spare bedroom trying to escape the garlic. My aunt makes fresh veggie juice for my mom at least once a day. Tonight, she added garlic to a mix of strawberries, apples and broccoli. The smell about made me lose my dinner.

Daily Dose

1. Watching one of my favorite movies--Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood.

2. Talking to my mom about iTunes. So she is going to be calling me to download some music for her.

3. Sitting on the porch while it rains. This is one of the things I miss about not living in a traditional setting.


  1. haha I'm so difficult at picking jeans too.. but I love shopping! as I remember you are a brunette so that grey t-shirt must look great on you!!! I can wear grey t-shirts all day long, I really do actually :)

    oh and as for the veggie juice.. sounds tasty, but the garlic's smell is too strong to handle indeed!

  2. Glad you found some pants! And glad your appetite has been consistent. I realize that anxiety makes my appetite vanish, and meds help with that's all good.

    I hope your mom's appetite improves. I know that's a big problem with chemo. You're such a loving daughter!

  3. Sitting on a porch when the rain is falling is one of my favorite things to do. I'm sorry your mom is sick. It is very kind of you to be there for her and I hope her health improves. Keep hanging in there.



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