Balance of life is so fragile

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For the next few days, I will be home in bed. A mandatory break due to an upper respiratory infection that is dangerously close to becoming pneumonia. It is a massive wake up call. I love what I do but I have let it consume me. I work hard to make sure my beat is covered. I try not to get scooped by the competition. I hustle to come up with stories. But I am just a girl. A sick girl with a lot on plate.

Everyone and my mother has lectured on me on taking better care of myself. I know. I have worked so hard to maintain my weight, eat right and be mentally strong. But I bury myself in my work so I don't have to think about my mom being sick. Or being away from my son. Work is just a nice thing.

My illness has changed things in the newspaper. I think the powers to be realize the reporters are being worked to hard. I have to find a balance. Plus, I need to brush up on my swimming skills. I can't let such a nice bathing suit go to waste. Thank y'all for such nice comments. I love it. I have it hanging up so I see it everyday. It reminds me of how far I have come. And how much farther I have to go.

So I will take it easy. I have finished a John Grisham novel, a few magazines and some newspapers. I have to do this. I do not want to end up in the hospital. And want to hear something interesting. I am sick and in bed. I am on antibotics and steroids. My mom is out and about visiting friends and family. She is having a nice time. Good for her because she deserves it.

Daily Dose

1. Daytime television is quite interesting with cable.

2. D came by with my favorite juice.

3. The new blog layout come from my love of looking out the window when it rains.

Comments

  1. CeCeJune 17, 2010 at 9:10 PM

    Feel better!!

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  2. Angela Elain GambrelJune 17, 2010 at 9:50 PM

    I hope you feel better soon. Take care of yourself!

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  3. KimJune 18, 2010 at 12:08 AM

    Oh no, I hope you feel better and ward off the pneumonia. You really are so busy with work and personal life stuff. I hope you are able to take some time to relax and rest so you feel your best.

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  4. ED RecoveryJune 18, 2010 at 2:58 PM

    Feel better! Resting and knowing when to take a step back can be tough...

    And, btw, thanks for stopping by the blog and leaving a note. I'm not much of a commenter lately, but I have been around from time to time...

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  5. AnonymousJune 18, 2010 at 3:47 PM

    Ahhh SG! Please look after yourself. The world will keep on turning...

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