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Getting ready to get on the road

It has been a long week with many changes at work. Sorry I distracted by the Prince of Persia trailer on tv. Jake Gyenhall is soooooo fine. Anyway, long week but I am done and leave for home in the early a.m. I plan to spend time with both JJ and my mom.

Her doctor suspended her chemo for three weeks so her body could have a break. She is so giddy about being normal for the next three weeks. Professionally, my life is going great. Personally, it sucks. I am on my meds and they seem to be working. My husband and I hardly talk. We communicate through texts or minimal conversation. I am not sure how to fix it. And I'm not sure I want to but I want us to be civil enough to be good parents to JJ. Why do things have to be so complicated?

While things are awkard and weird, I haven't restricted nor overeat. Breakfast is whatever I want it to be from chocolate donuts to sausage biscuit and gravy. No pressure and no regrets for me. Now lunch and dinner are balanced as much as possible. Next week, I will resume walking and in a few weeks jogging.

It was nice to be home before 8 p.m. It's budget season for towns, board of education, and county commissioners. Budgets that have to be passed by July 1. So for the next few weeks I will be busy with meetings.

My stress relief is visiting libraries and the college bookstore. The silence feels me with calmness. I need calmness.

Daily Dose

1. Homemade chicken wraps with tons of ranch and onions.

2. Being able to see my son and my mom.

3. Working to find my balance.

Comments

  1. I'm so glad to hear that you're eating in a healthy way, despite the stress with your husband. You love your son so much and I know you'll make your relationship work with your husband in a way that supports your son.
    Your mom sounds so strong. I hope the break does her good.
    It's great that you have work (and Jake Gyllenhall (sp?)) to keep you company :)

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  2. I just wanted you to know that I gave you the beautiful blogger award on my blog :-)

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  3. Love to your mother SG.
    And Lost.....ohhhhh!!

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  4. Hello :)
    I'm sorry to read that things are stressed between yourself and your husband. I hope that you are able to resolve this in a peaceful way for you all.

    Great news to read that your Mum is getting a break from chemo... that's wonderful for her.
    I hope that the chemo is helping her back to a healthy life again.

    take care and keep on loving that little boy of yours. he's adorable and needs you to be his loving Mum.

    love to you
    Robyn xxx

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