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When the bad mood rolls in......

It is official. I am in a shitty mood. A lot of factors have contributed to it. But my wedding anniversary is tomorrow. This is a big part of it. I deliberately scrambled up the work weekends so I would on duty working.

Technically, we are married. I haven't felt married in months. For weeks, I have been planning for when JJ comes up here at the end of April. I found out last night that hubby might try to torpedo this. And a foul mood went completely shitty. For the first time in weeks, I skipped dinner and went straight to bed. I stared at the ceiling for hours before I finally fell asleep at 3:30 a.m. Today, I am grumpy and exhausted but I did eat breakfast. And I know I shouldn't have restricted. I was just sad mommy.

I couldn't talk to the hubby about the situation because JJ was within earshot. So this is where things stand. I am interested to see what the hubby's problem is. Right now, we both have very sick mothers. His mother is dying of lung cancer. I am trying to be nice but I'm not giving up that weekend. I have earned it. So I will keep you posted on the situation.

Daily Dose

1. I see my mom and son on Sunday.

2. I am tired but wearing a cute sweater.

Comments

  1. Sorry about the shitty mood (and circumstances). I'm in a shitty mood myself... Post to come... Hang in there!

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  2. hey just remember
    we are here for you darling!!

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  3. You are tired but earing a cute sweater!! You totally cracked me up with that!

    I remember husband and I were apart by 3500 miles for most of the summer and part of the fall of 1994 when I was staying with his elderly mom in Canada, and I about went nuts that summer! Long distance marriage sucks.

    Jannie, who came her from wonderful sweet Barbara Swafford's.

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  4. shoot - a typo on my first visit here, arrg.

    wearing a cute sweater, of course, not earing one. God.

    and came "here" not her.

    oh boy, this is gonna be a long night on computer for me. :)

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