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Healthy thinking makes a pretty healthy body

I am thisclose to finding a therapist. Therapist idol is going well but a few have admitted they don't really cover eating disorders. I hope to find someone as close as possible. I want to make sure I get the most bang for my buck. EDwise, things are going okay. The ED voice isn't as strong as it has been in the past. In fact, it is a whisper. I am not a breakfast person but I try to have something each morning. Some days, it's muffins, grits, ham biscuits or pizza. I decided that breakfast is my anything goes meal.

Lunch is usually eaten out with my co-workers or whatever microwavable meal in my desk. And usually two days out of the week, an event I am covering will involve food. I try to cook dinner. I don't have a kitchen in my room so I use an electric skillet and my microwave to get the job done. All in all, I am doing decent. I have tried meal plans but I find it puts too much pressure on me. If I pick the times I plan to eat--6:30 a.m., noon and 6:30 p.m. along with snack breaks, things go well.

Now sometimes my job gets in the way of mealtimes but I either eat a large snack before working and then the meal soon after. My goals are not to skip meals and to maintain my weight.

It is nice to go shopping in the women's section. Ten years ago, I was shopping the girl's section and wearing a size 18. I am 5" 2 so you can imagine how I must have looked. And back then, there were no mirrors around. Today, I can look in the mirror without flinching or cursing myself. I've come a long but I still have a ways to go.

Daily Dose

1. Realizing my style has evolved.

2. Tonight is LOST.

3. Finding the cutest pair of heels.


  1. 'Wait and Bleed' by Slipknot SG!
    Oh yeahhhh!

    Keep looking in the mirror to...

  2. You sound like you know exactly what works for you and have made some amazing progress! How great that the ED voice is just a whisper :)

  3. so nice you can enjoy shopping at last!!


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