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Following the yellow brick road of recovery

A longtime I made an uneasy peace with the fact that I would probably always have an ED and possible lead to my demise. In the past year and half, I haven't felt this way. I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Today, the light seemed a little closer. I went to lunch with two people I have never eaten with and am on casual terms with. Normally for me, food is something for surival not pleasure. I am slowly becoming not a foodie but appreciating food a little more than just fuel for the body. Anyway, I had a chicken salad sandwich with a cup of tortilla soup. The sandwich was great but the soup was awful. I realized today I can distinguish what is good and bad beyond my ED. It's a big moment because I am getting more comfortable with food. Right now, I am in the midst of therapist idol. I have gotten it narrowed down to three therapist.

Today was a pretty good day for Silly Girl.

Daily Dose

1. I found $10 on the sidewalk but ended up giving it to this disheveled guy, who looked like he needed it more. I just walked up and said, "You dropped this sir." And then walked away.

2. Attended a Spirit Rally.

3. Had some more ice cream cake.


  1. So glad you're able to enjoy food more! And also glad you're finding a therapist :)

  2. $10 lying around?!!? Insanity!

    I mean...I think it's wonderful you've gotten closer to being healthy. :)


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