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When life hands you lemons, make some really good lemonade

The women in my family have this inner toughness that is hard to describe. We are not the emotional huggy types. If there is an obstacle, we keep going. It is how things were growing up and life in general. You have something bad or tough happen, you take a moment and keep going. This has always been my mantra. My husband’s family has a different mantra of either hugging it out or complaining. But my mother-in-law has the mantra of my family.

The point of this is that for the first time I am having a hard time following the mantra. I would prefer to curl up in bed with the covers on my head but there things to do like work and life. After having a ton of tests done, spots of cancer were found throughout my mother’s pelvis. The surgery for her arm has been postponed for 6 weeks so she can undergo radiation. When she told me, I had trouble breathing. She is holding up well considering all she is dealing with and will have to deal with. I couldn't imagine having to have my broken arm in a sling and not in a cast.

I have to admit growing up that my mother and I had a rocky relationship. When I left for college, we would deal with each on other on an as needed basis. It wasn’t until my grandmother was diagnosed with bone cancer and given a year to live that we started trying to be at least friendly with one another. This was in the late 90s so the two of us have come a long way in our relationship. I am so glad now that we both made an effort to connect.

The few months are going to be rough. And what my mom is dealing with makes me more determined to stick with recovery from my ED. Things are out of her control but I can do something. I can be more proactive and try a harder. I owe it to myself, my mother and my son. And how can I be of help to her if I am not doing well. It would be a slap in her face. So I am sad but I must be strong for her.

Daily Dose

1. Men’s figure skating is tonight.
2. Having very supportive co-workers
3. Twinkies


  1. I think it's great that you want to stay well through all this. I hope your mom is ok! I'm sure that's very stressful, emotionally. Thinking of you!


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