Thursday, June 11, 2009

Is something wrong me?


I have applied for more than 200 jobs. I have had a few interviews that I thought were very promising. And here I sat unemployed. I found out yesterday that I didn't get the reporter's position that I really wanted. Of all the jobs that I have applied for, this is the one I wanted.

Today has not been a good day. I am up and dressed. I had some toast this morning but I don't really feel like eating or doing anything. I guess I need to regroup, refocus and figure out what I want to do with my life. Obviously, working full-time at a newspaper is not part of the plan. I did email the managing editor to find out why I wasn't chosen. It will give me something to work with.

I feel like I am trapped in the forest with no way out. But far up ahead, I can see some light. My day will come soon.

My next stop is the grocery store for my favorite comfort food when I am down and out--fish sticks and macaroni and cheese. This always cheers me up. Some fish sticks, some magazines and watching "Pretty in Pink" will make me feel better.

Daily Dose

1. Fish sticks and mac and cheese

2. Hugs from JJ

5 comments:

  1. Sorry you're having a tough time. Job searching is exhausting, mentally and physically. I have to believe that the right thing will come your way when it's meant to come your way. You're being assertive. You're putting yourself out there. It's just a waiting game, when you have no real control. I know that feels TERRIBLE. The best you can do is take care of yourself so that when the opportunity does come along, you're healthy and ready to attack it!

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  2. I'm sorry you're having a hard day... there's nothing wrong with YOU. Finding a job is incredibly difficult, especially now. You can only do SO much, and it sounds like you're giving it everything you've got. It's hard, I know, but it will pay off for you in the long run.

    <3 <3

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  3. I hope the sun shine for you again soon.

    best wishes
    Ribbon

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  4. I feel what you're going through - I hit that wall a number of times not all that long ago. It's really damned near impossible to deal with a lack of callbacks and such when there's already an underlying sense of "am I good enough." The thing is - you are good enough; and when the perfect opportunity arises, you'll be ready and able to charge into it and thrive.

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  5. Job hunting is horrible in today's economy...sending good luck vibes your way!

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