Saturday, June 20, 2009

I need to move on



Yesterday, I had a day filled with mixed emotions. I covered a county council meeting that got the writing juices flowing. Then I found out my car has some sort of electrical system problem that cost $400. The mechanic, a friend of my hubby's, said I can drive it minimally to assignments and back home while I save up the funds. He was sweet and didn't charge me for the diagnosis. He said he knows I got a lot of stuff going on.

The best part of yesterday was that my former boss, now good friend, and another guy I used worked with came down from Pickle Land for a comic book convention nearby. We meet them and went to this hole in the wall that serves excellent wings. Along with my son and hubby, we had a good time filled with good conversation and food. Lots of food. There hot wings, terkayi wings, bacon/cheese fries, cheese ball, raw fris and onion rings. It was a great meal. I set a new wings record of eating 12 in one sitting along with tons of onion rings. I included some pictures of the fries and wings. I didn't have a chance to take a picture of onion rings, which looked great and tasted delicous, because I ate them.

I really miss my friends in Pickle Land. Last night, I thought about how much I missed my old world while sitting on my bed. My room looks like a vagrant lives there. Stacks of totes and newspapers along with minimal things to prove I live there. I have been wanting to get a job so I could the hell out of dodge. My huge bathroom is filled with unpacked boxes and old newspapers from the place I used to work. I can feel myself slipping back into old habits of isolating.

The main thing--I need to move on with my life. Things happen for a reason. I think something is telling me that I can have friends in the old world but it's time to make a life here with my family. And try to make new friends and reconnect with old friends that I have fallen along the wayside.

I will never full be comfortable living in a place where everyone knows me but I have no clue they are. So I am going to make an effort. A real effort to try. Instead of writing a list, I will just play it by ear.


Daily Dose

1. Seeing old friends and catching up

2. Realizing that things need to change and not be afraid of the changes

6 comments:

  1. It's hard to move on. I'm always slow to do that. I like to keep ties with people and, while I'm good at making "acquaintances," I'm slower to make real friends. But, I hate being lonely, and I know there are so many people out there looking for connection. I hope you start to feel more at home.

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  2. Clinging to the familiar is tempting, even if it's not the best of situations... but if you know deep down that you need to move on to something / somewhere else, I hope you find it within you to do that. You have the strength to move on in your life because it's what's best for you.

    <3 <3

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  3. I love meeting up with old friends and catching :) Especially if it's just like where we left off.

    Have a wonderful MOnday!

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  4. Yes, I agree, you do need to move on with life and make it new for you....it's ok to do that. You can still have the friends and "family" here that you had plus the new stuff. Getting a job would best benefit you now. I can tell that you feel like you don't have a purpose. If I were to win the lottery I would hire you as my personal assistant...I sure could use one. :) It will turn around Silly Girl...don't give up and remember ultimately, you do have a purpose...everything that you put into this life is important and matters. You affect others, like the ripples from a skipping rock...and the largest ripple of course is your boy...show him how strong you are and fight like a girl....it will all come together for you, I promise...but only if you want it to! :) Luv, hugs and kisses....

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  5. Wonderful advice from Dream Diva! I couldn't have said it better! You have the power to create your life - and surroundings - starting fresh. Take courage and move on!

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  6. One of the things in life that you can count on is CHANGE.
    Nothing stays the same forever and therefore it is in your best interest to embrace it and live your beautiful life to its full potential.

    You are on the right track.
    Keep up your good work.
    take care
    x Ribbon :-)

    PS... you need to change your tag from Silly Girl to Wise Woman :-) x

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