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Looking forward to the weekend

It is Friday. I am adjusting to the new dosages for my two medicines. I hate being on medication but for now it is the best solution. Until I can find some consistent care for my ED, I stay on the meds. I have noticed since I started on seroquel and remeron that I have vivid dreams. At times, the dreams seem like real life.

The situation has not been resolved about the car. I owe no apologies because on this I am right. I didn’t back into my own car so I shouldn’t have to pay for it. I know my husband and sister-in-law are stressed because of their mother’s illness and the lion’s share of the burden is on them. But there is no reason everything should be taken out on me. I am trying to be a good person but there comes a moment when a person has to stand up for what is right. Plus, I know that my mother-in-law agrees with me.

JJ and I have been taking care of the kittens. It is not easy being a surrogate mother but so far the kittens are doing fine. I have watched a ton of PBS in the last few days. I think I know the schedule by heart.

The managing editor of the newspaper where I used to live told me that they are still interviewing people so no decision has been made. But he will be in touch soon. So I continue to play the waiting game and doing some freelancing. I am trying to keep my spirits up but I’m worried that I will never find a job. I love my son more than anything in this world but I’m not cut out to be a stay-at-home mother. I admire those who do it. But it is not me. Not me at all. Since the holidays are coming, the libraries will be closed until Tuesday so I will be taking a break.

So enjoy your Memorial Day weekend folks! Stay safe and have loads of fun!!!!

Daily Dose

1. Pop Tarts
2. Walking to the mailbox on a lovely day


  1. I totally understand not being cut out to be a stay-at-home mom. It's good that you know that about yourself. I hope you hear from the job soon!!

  2. Hi sorry I haven't been around for a while. Sometimes I don't know where time takes me.

    I hope that work comes your way soon and yes all Mothers need some time away from their children.

    Look forward to hearing more news from you.

    take care and best wishes always
    Ribbon :-)


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