It's Monday again. I have filed for unemployment. But today is different because in about 30 minutes, I got to recertify for unemployment and find out how much I have left. I am not looking forward to this. I have spent most of the morning on the phone calling various eating disorder specialists. Since today is considered a holiday by most, I have left a ton of messages. I called my therapist with the study and told her that we were done. She said they are going to do all they can to find someone in this area for me. She commended on how well I have done.
I can honestly say that I did my best. And it was an honor to be in one of the best eating disorder programs in the nation. Even though, I am a little bummed about leaving the program--I know that I did my best. For breakfast, I had some garlic toast with cheese. I wasn't really in the mood to eat so I had to eat something.
I have some pretty promising job leads and I think I am going to join a support group for the jobless. I need to start socializing more. By Wednesday, I hope to make a decision about the Pickle Festival. Maybe a change of scenery will do me some good.
Yesterday, my husband cooked a big meal for his family. I opted out because I just didn't feel like being with them. Instead I grilled some cheeseburgers for Hilbert and I. (Hilbert, whose burger was plain, is my son's cat and I'm fond of the little cat too.) I had seasoned fries, green peas and chocolate donuts for the dessert. And I didn't feel bad after eating so yesterday was a good day. At least for the cat and I.