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Study day!

Today is Wednesday which means I am in Chapel Hill. Yesterday was a bad day. I was very down about the state of things. My husband and my son spent the day away from the house running errands and such. I had a chance to just think and clean. It made things a little okay.

The ride to Chapel Hill was nice. My husband drove and we had actually car conversation. It was nice. For each week, I have homework and goals. This was I was suppose to drink 60 ounces of water daily and try for three meals and two snacks each day. Well, I can drink 40 ounces of water daily. I have other liquids as well. And each day, I have two meals and one snack. I think this is an improvement for one meal and ton of junk food. I even brought soup to eat while meeting with my therapist today. She likes to see me eating.

A cousin of my husband's died and the funeral was today. The fact that he chose me over the funeral is very encouraging. Plus, I think his parents strong urged this. Lately, I have been in a blah mood. I can't my life being semi-normal (job, ED under control and marriage on track.


  1. I can tell that your mood is your writing is always sloppy when you are in a funk....keep your head will pass...and cudos to you on the improvement with what you are eating. You have to start steps...I don't think anyone expects it all at once...but to show an effort is the key. Good for James...are things really as good with him as you are saying they are now???? I have to wonder.

  2. Hello stay focused on what you want and not what you don't.

    It's okay to love yourself. You are number one and when you are okay all around you is too.

    take care best wishes Ribbon :-)


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