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I am ILL! Not sick but ILL!

It has happened. And it was done through a text message last night. My husband has decided we are no longer participating in the study. He knew in the beginning this would be every week thing to Chapel Hill. He claims it’s because he doesn’t want both of us away from James Edward and that my car is on its last legs. Maybe so but I believe it is because someone doesn’t want to do couples’ therapy. He sent the text at a little bit before 9 p.m. By the way, this is a shitty way to tell someone. Speaking your mind has never stopped you before in the past. Why start texting now? My husband is an ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There I said it.

I have only communicated through text because I am furious. I mean it knew it was coming. I had been expecting it all day. My husband can help everyone else in the world. This is one of the best opportunities for an anorexic. Things like this just don’t happen. This happened for a reason.

Well this morning he called the therapist. She offered a compromise of every other week. I ended up going to Chapel Hill. It was great to get everything off of my chest. The couples therapist is really nice. I gave her my husband phone number so they could chat about this. Who knows I could still be in the study at this time next week.

I have a job interview tomorrow in High Point. Wish me luck!!!!!


  1. Hi,

    My name is Jay, and I came here through Barbara's Blogging without a Blog. I have really enjoyed reading these first few posts of yours, and I can already tell that your blog is gonna be awesome!

  2. Hi,

    This is my first visit and after reading your latest post, I want to give you hug AND a high five. You should be proud of yourself for fighting for this opportunity to help yourself. It says a lot about your strength and determination. I hope you DO get to participate in the study and that you have a very successful job interview. I'm glad I stopped by :~)

  3. Hi,

    I'm wishing you the best with your interview. And ditto to what Sara said - be proud of yourself for all you're doing.

    See you again soon.

  4. It sounds like you are transitioning, bound for much better things in your life.

    I am glad you are getting your feelings out, that will help you carry the load. Keeping them inside would only make things worse.

    And... Congrats on NBOTW at Barbara Swafford's!! That's another good thing, right?


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