Tuesday, June 30, 2015

It's almost 3 and all is well...

June has been an interesting month. 

Lake selfie!!!
Visited the library fish!
Took care all of the drama involving my car so I was able to visit the bestie in RR. 

I had a great time because I spent it with her and had a three day weekend. She lives at Lake Gaston, which is beautiful.
Lake Gaston is down there. I was a little tipsy and didn't feel comfortable walking.

As I was getting dressed this morning, I decided definitely in July that I would wear nothing but dresses and skirts. 

It will be 31 days of the various skirts, dresses and skorts in my closet. And yes, I have enough to do this.
July is a brutally hot month in the south. I love a good dress. And they are even better in the summer. I plan to keep a photo record of this so I remember my different outfits. 

And while today isn’t July 1, I started with a cute skirt, tank and cardigan. And you gotten have a hat!

It is funny that I love dresses so much now. When ED was in control, I wouldn't wear a dress. Seeing my legs would sent me over the age. I could barely wear shorts. But now, there is no stopping me. Gotta show those legs!!!

1. Summertime!
2. Vacation! 
3. Three day weekend for the July 4th!!!

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Getting my walk on!!!

I love eating chocolate peanut butter cupcakes from the Tipsy Bee.
They are delicious but have done some damage to my waistline. I needed to do something in order to eat my beloved cupcakes and minimal weight gain.
So I started urban hiking around Mount Olive. 
Most evenings, I leave my apartment and explore various streets and areas of the town. I started walking to the library, which is awesome. Then I decided to walk to the park. I walked to my friend S’s house. Maybe one day, I’ll walk to the University.
It is a good way to build strength and endurance while burning calories. A one-mile hike can burn up to 150 calories.
I decided to take it up a notch and go on my first real hike at Cliffs of the Neuse.
It is a 20 minute drive from my home.
The Cliffs of the Neuse has something for everyone. There is camping, swimming, fishing and hiking. And for me, it is one out of four. I don’t sleep outside, I can’t swim and I’m not a fisherman.
There is no admission fee but there is a minimal cost to camp and swim.
So I got up early Saturday morning so I could beat the heat.
There are five hiking trails—Longleaf, Bird, Galax, Spanish Moss and Lake Loop--and each is less than a mile in length. I took the Lake trail and while I enjoyed myself in the peace and solitude, it seemed like it was more than a mile.
I will admit that I am not the most outdoor oriented person. Bugs and other critters don’t appeal to me.
And to be prepared, I had a little backpack with water, granola bars, bug spray and cell phone.
After some stretching, it was through the woods, around many curves and to the lake.
It took me a few minutes to get used to the birds chirping and sound of my breathing. I could feel all the stresses of the world fall away. When I finally got to the lake, I felt like I had really accomplished something.
But as I stepped from one side to the other, I accidentally stepped into a carpenter ant hill.
Carpenter ants are very large ants. They build their nests around the base of living trees and in rotting logs.  As I walked, I had worked hard to avoid them because they were all over the trail.
But I managed to find some of them. Anyone on the other side of the lake must have thought that I was doing some kind of crazy interpretive dance.
But other than that brief moment of pain and humiliation, I had a good time and could see myself going back to conquer the other trails.
To others interested in hiking, the first thing is to figure how long you want to hike. I knew I didn’t want to go Appalachian Trail style but wanted to something that could be done in an hour before it got to crazy hot.
Also decide if you want to go solo or with a friend. I went solo because I knew I wouldn’t be able to convince any of my friends to join me.
The most important is to let someone know that you are on the hiking trail. So if you go missing, they will at least know where to start looking. Plus, have a fully charged cell phone.
I had a good hike and my legs are still feeling it.
And while I liked it, I think I will stick to urban hiking. I have started to go other towns, park and walk.
Of course, all of that is temporary on hold during the heat wave. I can do a basic walk to the library and back to get some exercise. Anything else is just too much.
In other news, I had some trouble getting my car to pass inspection for the state of North Carolina. 
The result was 12 not ready slips, $200 in repairs and $35 for a tire. Beatrice passed!!! And for 15 hours, life was good. I got to work and found I couldn't get my car out of park. Turns out the transmission cable broke so Beatrice is now in the car hospital. A friend is letting me drive his car while Bea is being fixed. So life is still pretty good and slightly hot.

1. Chocolate peanut butter cupcakes!
2. Windows down, radio blaring and singing at the top of your lungs!
3. Good friends!

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Things will be get better

“Place your hand over your heart, can you feel it? That is called purpose. You’re alive for a reason so don’t ever give up.” – Unknown
    Recent events have made me think a lot.
Last week, a man in Pickleland drove around railroad crossing arm and parked on the railroad tracks. Then he got out of his vehicle and took beside it as an oncoming train bear down on him. 
Suicide by train. It was big news here and happened about a mile and half from my apartment.   
Apparently, the 27-year-old man was depressed and distraught about a relationship and other things. In his mind, there was no other way out.  
It hit home with me because I have been in his shoes. I have been so depressed and overwhelmed that suicide seemed like the best solution.

“When people kill themselves, they think they’re ending the pain, but all they’re doing is passing it on to those they leave behind.” – Jeannette Walls

Thankfully in some of my lowest points, I reached out to others for help.
Life is not easy. We really don’t know what another person is dealing with or going through.
And I wouldn’t want my son to wonder for the rest of his life or to blame himself.
I feel bad for the young man’s mother who came to the scene of the incident and knew it was her son.
This is something I have thought about for days.
I am going through some rough stuff right now. And there have been some dark days but I continue to put one foot in front of the other.
There is a sweet Iron Man fan who someday will do great things. And I want to be there to see him do it.

Need help? Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Day 28—I stood up for myself and set some boundaries with others. Day 29—Face a fear. I spoke to a class of high school students. Day 30—Learn about a new possible hobby. I went to a knitting class. I was way out of my league.

Things have slowed down a lot in the past weeks. This week will be busy but not as crazy as other weeks.

1. Grape soda
2. There is no shame in walking through the stacks at the library to calm down.
3. Vacation time is coming!!!

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