The countdown has begun

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In three days, I will heading down to SC on Christmas. I feel like a little kid waiting for Santa. I am so excited but nervous. 

For most of this month, I have worked so crazy hours and did a lot of brainstorming so I could have a stockpile of stories so JJ wouldn’t have to live here at the newspaper with me. I have done a lot of interviews and photo taking so all I have to do is write the stories and be on merry way with the little guy. 

There is an awful cold going around the newsroom so I have avoided people like the plague. There is nothing worst than driving five hours when you feel like death. I don’t want to be sick and I certainly do want JJ to be sick.

I hope I don’t sound silly about being so excited. I get to spend a week with JJ by myself.

The last few weeks have been rough. ED  has tried to rear her ugly head. Yesterday after talking with doctor, I am going to switch from remeron to prozac. For about six months, I have been anxious while taking the medication. So much that my Seroquel dosage had to be up. It has gotten to the point where I am taking one medication to control the anxiety of another. 

So it I have been easing into this because I don’t want anything to get in the way of JJ and I being there. If Christmas goes well, and I think it will, I am going to aim for spring break. This time, I will take the entire week off so we can do all kinds of things together. 

Currently, I have 117 hours of vacation time. It is time I start using it.


Daily Dose
1. Enjoying holiday goodies while being mindful!
2. Spinach dip made with water chestnuts
3. Three days until I see JJ!

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  1. Cece @Mahogany DriveDecember 21, 2012 at 9:18 PM

    I LOVE Spinach dip. Have fun with your son and merry christmas!!

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