Heart Still Beats

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I have had a pretty good week. I am relaxing on the couch after spending the day in Rocky Mount. RR is great but doesn't have bookstore, a Target or a Goodwill. If I want those three, I  have to leave. Today, I went to Rocky Mount.

My first stop on little adventure was Books-A-Million. It was nice to have a red velvet cupcake, a cup of hot chocolate and a book. I soaked it all in and love it. My next stop was Target. I spent an hour and half in there and didn't buy a thing. I miss that store.

The last stop was at the Goodwill. I brought five dresses as a reward (more on that in a few). And a cute pair of red pumps. The real purpose for going to Rocky Mount was to take pictures for a magazine article I am writing about the children's museum. I had a great time but wish JJ was there. The exhibit was on dinosaurs. They moved and made sounds. It was so cool. I have added it to the list of places that I plan to take him when he comes to RR for a visit in a few weeks.

Back to giving myself a reward. I had therapy session on Thursday. It was very productive. At the end was the monthly weight check. Since I have started seeing Dr. M, I have turned my back so I wouldn't see the numbers. Numbers stress me which can lead to restricting. I have been doing pretty so I decided to find out the number. I am at 126 pounds. This is the most that I have weighed in my life. I did a happy dance in Dr. M's office. Dr. M told me that he was proud of me. When I first started therapy, he was worried about my weight, my depression and my ED.

Dr. M also gave me the greenlight to take water aerobics. I am comfortable with the numbers and the fact I am doing well. With the new requirements of my job, I need to be healthy and on my game.


Daily Dose
1. Feeling comfortable inside my skin.
2. Being comfortable enough to wear dresses.
3. Red velvet cupcakes are AWESOME.

Comments

  1. annamariaJanuary 30, 2011 at 6:36 PM

    wow five dresses!! I bet they look great on you :)
    and congrats on the weight, you are making an excellent progress!! water aerobics are so much fun (I kind of master in aerobics so believe me you'll love it) and a great work out for the muscles.

    I am really happy for you dear*
    kisses.

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  2. PenJanuary 30, 2011 at 7:09 PM

    So happy for you! Ironic that you would write about "treating yourself". I think you should read my last post! Good luck to you!

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  3. Angela Elain GambrelJanuary 30, 2011 at 9:31 PM

    I'm so happy for you! I found out last week I met my healthy goal weight set by my doctor - 115, which is the most I have weighed in years. I am still getting used to this new body, but I'm kind of liking it. I think we both should be proud!

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  4. ToriJanuary 30, 2011 at 10:05 PM

    That's awesome girl! And even more so because YOU are happy with it. Isn't that what we're all striving for? A happy and healthy weight! You deserved that "award" and 1,000 more :)

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  5. CeCeJanuary 31, 2011 at 11:23 AM

    It would probably do me good to weigh backwards or stop weighing altogether!! That is so cool that you saw the number and you are ok with it and your body. That's MAJOR!!

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  6. MalloryJanuary 31, 2011 at 12:52 PM

    its been a while since i checked up ion you and YOUR PROGRESS IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so so so so so happy for you :) :) i think we are in similar places now and that is awesome

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