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Tough as nails

My mom rocks! She had chemo yesterday and said she felt so good that she drove her car for the first time in months. And it's a stick shift and she has a broken arm. Amazing! And she isn't taking much morphine for pain. When I grew up, I want to be just like my mom. She fucking rocks! There I said it.

I finally settled on a therapist. My first appointment is next Thursday. I wanted an ED specialist but this would involved driving either an hour and half to two hours away. I found a doctor who is willing to work with me about ED and other issues (mom dying of cancer, pending divorce and missing my son). I am leaning strongly for going back on my meds. With the way things have been going, I need therapy and meds.

I did an interview at an assisted living center, which warmed my soul. Not only did I meet some really nice residents but two of the ladies in charge are thrift store junkies like me. We compared outfits and what stores they came from. In RR, there is cool consignment that has opened. It suits all budgets from $1-$100. You can go in with just five bucks and still come out with something nice. I am going to use my Silly Girl skills to see if the consignment store will set up a shopping day for the residents. I think they would really like that. I like using my powers for the forces of good.

I still haven't heard anything about my son visiting. I am pretty much waiting for the officially no. I think it sucks but that is a whole other post.

Daily Dose

1. My mom is good spirits and making egg custard!

2. Being able to help others

3. Finding a Virginian Pilot newspaper on the break room table. It's like it was just left there for me. In addition to pens, magazines and notebooks, I love newspapers! I am such a geek.


  1. Wow, your mom sounds like such a strong woman! That's awesome!
    I'm so glad you found a therapist and have an appointment. You really do have so much going on and having support will be great.
    I really hope you get to see your son... Such a frustrating situation!

  2. I'm so pleased for you and your mum SG!


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