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Tired but happy

I have never been so tired. But I'm happy. Yesterday was a busy day with me covering two different assignments for two different newspapers in two different states. I found out the center I want to go to no longer has the intensive out patient program but has other things. The most important thing is that I have started the process of trying to get a wavier so I can receive treatment from the center. Today is group therapy day.

Two weeks ago, I applied for a housekeeping job at a local hotel. I didn't get it. I didn't have the qualifications to be a housekeeper. This bothers me. I thought I met the basic qualifications but the hotel didn't. This really pisses me off. I know it shouldn't but it does. I have applied for more than 250 jobs. To say I am frustrated is the understatement of the year. I am trying to be positive but I am frustrated. I just needed to get this off of my chest. I look on the bright side--I have the freelancing gigs and Medicaid so there are some pluses.

Some days I feel like I have a I Pod in my head. Different songs to match my different moods. Every morning I wake up with a song in my head. This morning, it was the Black Eyed Peas--I Gotta a Feeling. A very upbeat song to have in your head.

Daily Dose

1. I am getting healthier.
2. Discovering new music and making mixed cds.


  1. It's always demeaning to not get a job we are totally qualified for - I was passed over for a receptionist job that pissed me off. I was 40, they hired a young thing that quit in 3 wks, re-ran the ad and never called me - I had run a frikin office for years but didn't qualify?! I stayed home a decade with little kids and could not get back into the work force tho I'd applied for dozens of jobs! This was not in the bad economy either! Frustrating!!! Hang in there!

  2. Were you able to find out anything ont the jobs here that I told you about last week? I visited that web site and couldn't get anywhere. I swear they have positions available though...maybe you could contact them directly at the location here??


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