Saturday, June 6, 2009

Graduation

I do love a graduation. I took pictures of the students graduating from the local high school. They are looking to the future. Tonight, two of my cousins are graduating so today will be a long one. I don't miss high school. It's not the point in time I would go back to visit. Instead I would visit my 20-year-old self. This is when I started to realize I had an eating disorder. I would talk to myself and try to get help.

This week has been exhausting. I am looking forward to some quiet. I guess now is the waiting game. While I wait, I continue to job hunt and try to not stress. Who knows what the future holds for me. But in my immediate future is a country ham biscuit from Bojangles. The cereal I ate for breakfast is loooong gone. I find myself some days eating without thinking and some days I have to remind myself to eat. But at this moment, I actually feel hungry. This doesn't happen every day. It feels weird but I am adjusting to it. I don't think I will ever have an easy relationship with food.

Last night, I went to an organizational meeting for Habitat for Humanity. I really hope the people in the room follow through on it. It is a very worthwhile organization. The meeting took place in a barbecue restaurant with huge buffet. I hate buffets because there is so much pressure. Usually, I tell people that I have either already ate or will eat later. I stood in line and fixed a plate. I had fried fish, baked beans, a baked potato, two chicken nuggets and some green beans. I was very proud of myself. If I become editor of the newspaper, social eating will become a way of life for me.

Daily Dose

1. Finding a great LL Bean backpack at a yard sale for $2. This backpack is nice.

2. Country ham biscuits from Bojangles. Salty but delicious.

3. Wifi at the library. Best. Thing. Ever!

3 comments:

  1. You know, I don't think I'll ever have an "easy" relationship with food either, but that's okay. As long as I have a relationship with food, that's probably good :)

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  2. I don't miss high school either... I might miss certain aspects of my younger self, but I wouldn't say I miss high school! And I have to say, I abhor graduations... I just find them incredibly boring and difficult to sit through! But if you like them, this is the season for you. ;)

    <3 <3

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  3. Sharing the fear of buffets here... too much food in combination with temptation... not good at all. I'm still looking forward to graduation (next year) but I think I'll also join the club of: Not missing high-school one bit, bad memories...

    xxx

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