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Being back in the game

Yesterday and this morning has been great. I got to do what I love--being a reporter. The banquet last night was night. In the past, whenever I covered banquets or any event involving food. I never really ate. I would say that I ate before or get a small portion.

This has changed. Last night, I had chicken breast with broccoli and cheese casserole, lima beans and macaroni and cheese. It was delicious. For dessert, I had the best lemon creme cake ever. I realized while driving home that I didn't stress about the meal. This is a odd feeling to eat without feeling guilty.

The county meeting was great. They actually had a verbal tussle and I was the only reporter there. After the meeting, I met the editor and publisher of the paper. The publisher wanted to meet the lady "who was writing such excellent articles." She pointed that I was a rare find in the newspaper world. I wish they were able to afford to hire me but there is no use moaning about this. I am just so glad to be able to write. It keeps me from isolating myself from the world.

Daily Dose

1. Broccoli and cheese casserole

2. County council meetings rock!


  1. Great job on eating without guilt :) That shows so much progress! Sometimes I find myself eating something I wouldn't have eaten before and I stop and think, "Wow, pretty cool." It's pretty empowering :)

    What a great compliment on your articles :)

  2. It's ALL good!!! YAY for you. Eat and write, write and eat - one day at a time. Hugs from suZen!

  3. doing work you love and eating well -- what a wonderful combination!

  4. Awesome for eating without feeling guilty for it, that is huge. And why should you feel guilty?!

    I'm glad you were able to get the opportunity to write; it can be so wonderful, especially when it's work you love.

    <3 <3

  5. That's awesome that you didn't feel stressed out after your meal :) Seriously a big accomplishment. I love how you reflect on the positive things in your day. It makes life a lot easier

  6. Congratulations!!

    big hug and best wishes


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