Starting to feel like myself

I am starting to finally feel pretty decent. I really think all this stems from the fact that my body is used to being in a pattern of restrict and release. Right now, it doesn't not understand if the eating is for real or is just a tease. I don't feel as nauseous as I did a week ago.

Today is my fifth wedding anniversary. After last year, I was really worried that we wouldn't make it as a couple. But we did. We celebrated last night at midnight with a sparkling cider toast and a few snicker miniatures candies.

I still haven't heard anything from the job interview. I am trying to stay positive but I am scared that I will never get a job. So I am trying to stay busy to keep my mind from wondering. We have lived in our home since June of last year. I have yet to really unpack. My huge bathroom is one big storage container. So I am tackling this right now. It is hard going through seven years of memories. But I am making some headway. Right now, I am trying not to feel lost and hopeless.

The study is one of the best things to happen to me. The nutritionist gave me a food journal that has me breaking the food I eat into fats, proteins, grains and etc. It is really eye opening about what I need and don't need in my diet. She reassure me that changes don't have to be made in a day but gradually. I agreed because I want to do this right.