NotesFromtheVoices

I am back at work after a week long vacation. It was just what my soul needed.  Plus, I got to spend some much needed time with my son. I wish I could say we went to some cool place like Hawaii or France. Nope.  We hung out in Pickleland and both of us were happy. We visited parks, a cool new library, toured downtown, watched cheesy sci fi movies and talked.  Priceless moments that I will always treasure. I am usually able to see JJ once a month. So our time together is precious. Seven days was an amazing treat. And to get a week means having to talk to JJ’s father. I will admit there are times I avoid physically talking with him and just text him. Sometimes it is easier to get your feeling hurt in a text than in a phone call. It was worth all of the planning, headaches and discussions. JJ is getting older. And he is crazy smart. One of my goals for next summer is get my life and finances together so I can sign him ...

I have a confession.  I am not doing well. I have been in denial. I have noticed my clothes are not fitting like they should and I am using a belt more. But I ignored it. I have skip some meals. A little more than here or there. But I pretended everything was okay. I blamed it on a bad case of food poisoning. Last week,  I visited my best friend. Nothing slips past her. She was polite but firm in her assessment. She looked me up and down and said I had lost 20 pounds and it was noticeable. And she was very worried. Between the stress of the job, missing my friends, worrying about money and other things, eating has not been a priority. I am really not sure what to do. I don’t want to go back on remeron. While I gained weight, it made me so anxious that I had to take anxiety medicine. Currently, I am not taking any meds. I really wanted to handle life without medication. But I need to be honest with myself. I am one of those people who need medication...