NotesFromtheVoices

To see JJ, I spend up to five hours traveling to see him. And sometimes, it is after working all day. When you are traveling the interstate, the monotony sometimes makes me sleepy. I will admit that I pull off the interstate and take a nap in the parking lot of Target or Barnes and Noble. It is not the safest thing to do but the quick nap keeps me going. While proofing the newspaper this morning, I read something that chilled me to the core. A woman was traveling on I-95 and stopped in RR because she was tired. She decided to take a nap in the parking lot of the local hospital. A habitual offender, who wasn't suppose to be released from jail, found her there and brutally raped her and then drove out near the interstate and left her. Then the rapist went on a burglary spree. The rape victim found her rapist on our website being charged with another crime. This has definitely made me want to be more careful. No more sleeping  in the car and being extra vigilant with my surroundin...

Instead of spending the day on the couch watching movies, I went to this farm, Wildwood Learning Farm near Hollister, NC, to take some pictures. It was hot but I had a great time with the animals. When JJ comes back for a visit, I plan to take him there. He loves animals. And he will have a good time. Emma the pig saying hi! With the past few weeks being kind of rocky, I woke with a new attitude this morning. I am interested in doing some freelancing to earn some extra money and experience. I just want to expand my horizons and options for the future. A few posts ago, I put a photo of myself on this blog. In the past, I have not been kind to myself. I don't have many photos of myself or myself with my son. The main reason is because photos documented my struggles with ED. And I couldn't deal with this. But now, I am becoming more comfortable with myself. My friend N took this picture of me taking a picture of her. Recently, I discovered the digital music for Charter....

It has been a looong week. JJ is doing great and the situation has been handled. Since it was not a vacation, I didn't returned well-rested. Between talking and making sure JJ is okay, I am exhausted. It is suppose to be a beautiful weekend but I will probably spend it sleeping. Sad but true.

My mom once told me that when you become a parent, you take this unspoken vow to do whatever it takes to protect your child or children from harm. This week, I got very unsettling phone call from my husband. During the past weekend, while JJ was at an older cousin's home, some inappropriate touching took place. To say I am shocked is an understatement. JJ is doing fine.  Long story short, my husband has a 13-year-old niece who has some issues. Her half sister saw her touch JJ in a place she shouldn't have and told an adult. After talking with JJ, I have found this was the only time. JJ knows about stranger danger and other key things a child should know. He said he is okay but is very worried  that everyone will be mad at him for what happened. Both his dad and I have reassured him that is not the case. We are taking JJ to see someone about this. And we are suppose to meet with my brother-in-law tomorrow to discuss the situation. I will keep you posted. I just needed to wr...

Happy Fourth of July! It has been a pretty decent weekend. The fitness boot camp starts Thursday at 5:30 p.m. To prepare, I have been working out each day along with following a special meal plan. The meal plan has been the hardest. I can only eat chicken, fish or whey. Plus, I can only eat certain fruits and veggies. It has been a complete lifestyle change that left me in tears at one point. The high points are drinking more water and less sodas, eating healthy and exercising regularly. The low points were no junk food, no pasta and no orange soda. I found out the formally name for the camp is a "Bikini boot camp" and a lot of those signed up are pros at this. Technically, my food plan is a diet. And for a few days last week, I was always hungry and was scared that if I ignored the hunger, it might lead to restricting. After a chat with my boss, I felt a little better. I know it has been a week but I have noticed my pants fitting a little better. I got a phone call from ...