NotesFromtheVoices

My husband is trying to get out the study. I knew this would happen when the couples therapy component was brought up. He can dish out the advice but can't take it. He says it would be cheaper to pay a sliding fee payment in Charlotte. I think the study and all the benefits are worth the drive to Chapel Hill. He worries about us being away from our son for more than 12 hours on those days. I think he is being a dick. There I said it. He doesn't want to hear the feedback. I am committed to this more than I have ever been to getting help. I just don't understand. My first article for the newspaper was a success. At least something is going good today.

The editor loved the first article I wrote. I found out yesterday. I am pretty happy right now. The food diary is hard. I really don't eat that much. And when I do it is junk food. I opened a new bank account today and had lunch with my husband. Not bad for a Monday. Watched the Oscars last night. Hugh Jackman did okay. I wasn't as bored as I was in the past.

It has been a quiet Sunday. I brought the Sunday paper. I applied for a job in Kentucky. I don't know why but just seemed like the thing to do. I think my husband is going to try and get out of the study. I don't think he likes the idea of going to Chapel Hill every week. The way I see it there are many things I don't like doing. I hate gathering water everyday and sometimes getting out of bed. But I do it. I'll just have to see how it goes. One side of my lap top, I am blogging. On the other side, I am letting my son watch trailers of various movies. It's just a lazy day. On e of the best because my little guy is with me.

Today, I covered my first event for the newspaper as a freelancer. It felt really good. I have missed being a writer. Last night, I talked with some old friends. I really miss my old life, job and friends. I guess life is what you make of it. I am suppose to keep a food diary for the next week. So far today two slices of cheese pizza and a orange soda.

Today, I started my first session in the eating disorder study at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. I am very excited. For the first time, I think I can conquer my anorexic. I have to for the sake of my son and my marriage. It was three hour drive but it was worth it. Until this study, I never really looked at beginnings of my eating disorder. And I never really looked at how it affects others in my life. As a homework assignment, the therapist wants me to keep a food journal. This should be interesting.