Going back to Dr. S

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Since I am no longer in the study, I had to go back to Dr. S at the local mental health agency. I don’t like him. He doesn’t understand EDs and thinks it is a matter of taking meds and getting out of bed. I need the prescription from him in order to get my meds for $20. I can’t wait until I get a job with benefits so I will not have to deal with him anymore. My benefits have been cut severely so I will not be able to see Dr. Isla so I am going back to the group therapy at the mental health agency. This is only temporary until I either my benefits run out and Medicaid will have to take me or I find a job. One thing that made me happy about my visit with Dr. S. I am still holding steady at 110 lbs. It hasn’t been easy because there have been some down days. Still 110 and not freaking out.

JJ is with me full-time now so I have to be at the top of my game. He needs me healthy and clear headed and so do my hubby, MIL and my mother. So many people depend on me being healthy. It is a lot of pressure but good pressure.

It is quite windy today. Winnie the Pooh would call it a blustery day. I just got through watching Curious George with my son. A good positive show that teaches things a three year old needs to know.

Daily Dose

1. Curious George
2. Libraries

Comments

  1. Barbara SwaffordMay 19, 2009 at 11:21 PM

    Hi Silly Girl,

    I haven't visited in awhile, but that doesn't mean I haven't thought of you.

    I'm so happy to hear you're right on target and are handling the (good) pressure so well.

    Blessings,

    Barbara

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  2. KimMay 20, 2009 at 12:12 PM

    I love that you said, "So many people depend on me being healthy." While I guess there's some pressure there, I see it as mostly inspiring.

    I hate doctors who don't get EDs. They can be so condescending and ignorant. I know how it is to struggle with health benefits. I hope you find the support you need!!

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  3. The Thrifty Book NerdMay 20, 2009 at 1:20 PM

    Thanks a lot! Your support means a lot to me!

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  4. I Hate to WeightMay 20, 2009 at 2:30 PM

    i also hate doctors who don't "get" it. good for you for doing what you need to do to take care of yourself.

    i'm having trouble with my benefits right now. i'm terrified i'll have to change doctors -- i've finally found good ones. aargh.

    good luck!

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