Why did I get married?

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My husband is trying to get out the study. I knew this would happen when the couples therapy component was brought up. He can dish out the advice but can't take it. He says it would be cheaper to pay a sliding fee payment in Charlotte. I think the study and all the benefits are worth the drive to Chapel Hill.

He worries about us being away from our son for more than 12 hours on those days. I think he is being a dick. There I said it. He doesn't want to hear the feedback. I am committed to this more than I have ever been to getting help. I just don't understand.

My first article for the newspaper was a success. At least something is going good today.

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